i've been deceived .
i've seen the side that you claimed to hate . the side that I've never seen before . i'm used to your loud , bold anger . but this type of anger is unsettling and downright disturbing . it makes you seem so cold , so unlike the person i fell in love with . i don't hate this side of you , i doubt that i would ever be able to hate any part of you .
but this side of you makes me afraid , not for my own safety but for your sanity .
i wish you would speak to me but you'd prefer lashing out with hurtful words and calculated gestures . i know you feel guilty afterwards .
i know you feel guilty for pushing me away , when it's clear that you need me the most . more than you'd ever admit .
i wish i was braver , more bolder .
i'd call you out , demand an explanation for all the times that you'd use me as the aftereffects of your anger , even when i did nothing wrong .
but i allow it , i shy away from this anger .
because i'm afraid of how your harsh words would break me , how your calculated gestures would shatter my heart , how your self-destruction would ruin me .
YOU ARE READING
A Letter To Him .
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