I had promised myself that i'd be ok .
I told myself that i wasn't the same person you met at first .
I convinced myself that i was stronger , less naive , more confident .
But even with all that self-control intact , one glance at you and i found myself reaching out towards you .
But I remained standing , staring straight ahead .
Willing myself to keep calm and not break down , not here , not now .
I kept on this composed facade , while i was dying inside .
“ you're not here for me . you're not here for me . ”
I repeated to myself constantly , but I inwardly smiled knowing that nobody knew you , not the way I do .
Nobody knew your dreams and aspirations , like i did .
nobody knew your dreams and aspirations , like i did .
nobody knew the hurt you hid behind those observant eyes , like i did .
I knew you , all of you .
But I had to pretend that i wasn't trying to attract your attention .
I had to pretend that i wasn't left breathless when you had walked right past me .
Then it dawned upon me , when you love someone , you open your heart and that's exactly what i've been doing all along .
All three years passed by but I swear it's i see you each and every day , for the first time .
You still look perfect as days go by and i allow every detail to seep in and embed itself in a safe place , a happy place .
Because i know just as you had arrived swiftly , you'll end up leaving in the same manner .
i'd stop the clock if it gave us time .
But even though your stay might be brief , i'm glad your soul stopped by to say hi .
YOU ARE READING
A Letter To Him .
RandomHer words hold the truth , showing her vulnerability and fragility . Her words shows the growth within her , her strength in tragedy . She was strong enough to love him , even though he didn't love her . She was strong enough to stay by him , even w...
