I wonder if you know how it feels . I wish you'd find out .
how it feels to need somebody in the way that I need you . to feel the anxiety settle in your stomach , causing so much pain that you'd double over and fall to the floor .
to constantly hallucinate , only to find out that it's not real , it's only an illusion .
to dry heave until the bile rises in your throat , to feel the acid burn your insides , turning it into ashes .
to flood your pillowcase with tears , wishing you'd reach the bottom of the ocean and just drown .
to feel the hunger but not being able to eat .
to feel parched but not being able to drink .
you'd stare at the ceiling while the hours tick by , without realising that you haven't slept at all .
to have an endless loop going in your head , every thought mocking you , every image conjured to cause you further pain .
you would start feeling insane , as if you had lost yourself completely .
no longer considered a person , only a shell , empty and void of emotion .
you would be avoided , left alone by everyone , even the ones that said they cared .
but that's okay . cause even that wouldn't matter .
none of would matter , because you wouldn't be alive . your last breath would be taken by the person that you loved the most .
but i'd never really wish that on anybody , especially not you . because even though you took my life , i'd still want you to be happy .
i'd never want you to feel the way i do .
YOU ARE READING
A Letter To Him .
RandomHer words hold the truth , showing her vulnerability and fragility . Her words shows the growth within her , her strength in tragedy . She was strong enough to love him , even though he didn't love her . She was strong enough to stay by him , even w...
