you're saying I changed ? calling me heartless , void of any emotions .
do you think i wanted to become this person ? do you really think I wanted to become this person that thinks twice before showing affection , saying all these idyllic words in my head , preventing myself from uttering them aloud .
this back and forth , these arguments ,
are so exhausting .
literally emotionally and physically draining .
I thought I was strong enough to deal with your bullshit and still remain vibrant , still remain me .
But I feel as if i'm losing myself every single day that passes by .
Feeling real naive , mentally scolding myself for loving a person that couldn't love me back .
all that wasted time and love , you're my wasted love .
I'm really just trying to love forward .
It's really hard but i'm going to be grateful each breath that I take trying to appreciate the little things I life once more .
This negative mindset is holding me back , this exhaustion is an obstacle between me and my happiness .
I'm looking out for me .
I've finally prioritised myself above everyone else , above you .
I wish you the best in whatever you do .
Knowing you'll get over this endless mess sooner than I would .
you'll remain a hallucination , and i'll hold on to all the memories .
You're the reason I don't believe in love anymore , but you're also the reason I started believing in myself more .
thank you but I've turned this page and this chapter has ended .
YOU ARE READING
A Letter To Him .
RandomHer words hold the truth , showing her vulnerability and fragility . Her words shows the growth within her , her strength in tragedy . She was strong enough to love him , even though he didn't love her . She was strong enough to stay by him , even w...
