A Letter To Him .

prayer of gratitude

Bruised knees , streams pouring
from my eyes . 
I talk to him about you , about us .
Each and every night , i lay my fears at the cross .
But tonight was different . this time i had not called upon him to pray for you , like i usually did .
I had not called upon him to pray for your happiness , your peace , your success , like i usually did .
I called upon him to thank him for placing you in my life .
it was not a coincidence , or an accident or even fate .
It was God's will .
He placed you in my path for a reason , you had a purpose in my life .
He placed you in my life to make me stronger , to show me what having faith meant , to show me how to selflessly love , to want the happiness of somebody else above my own .
I spent hours on my knees with my head bent , not for myself but for you .
I uttered everything i wanted for you , and i knew he had heard me clearly .
I didn't care much for my own prosperity or happiness because I knew when you had reached your climax of happiness , i'd find my joy .
You're such an amazing being , with an achingly beautiful soul . Your story has not ended but it has only begun .
You're not as broken , as messed up or as tarnished as you think . There's hope for you and i'll continue believing that you'll find what you're looking for .
So i expressed my gratitude to him for using you to mould me into a better person .
I expressed my gratitude to him for putting me in the direction of my significant other .
And lastly , i expressed my gratitude to him for showing me what love meant , in the form of you .