Cloudy vision , racing thoughts .
She said i'm obsessed with you . One inhalation of smoke and i continuously coughed .
They laughed at me , but not in an judgemental way , more in a " she's an innocent soul " type of way .
And i guess my innocence is still intact , my purity lies within me . After my coughing fit , i sat down on the sand with my face in my hands .
I don't belong here , i never did . I belong between the pages of an book , next to a fireplace on a soft rug , i belonged in your arms .
I thought this would make the pain fade away , i thought this would make the emotions less vivid .
And it did for a while , i felt numb .
But i'm always just ok for a little while because the last time i closed my eyes i saw your face and before i knew it , the floodgates had opened and the tears had wet my face .
How many times will i cry over you ? how many times will i pretend that you even understand this love that i have for you when you clearly don't .
I don't even understand it , honestly .
But i can't help it , i just can't stop it .
I'm tired of wondering whether you're thinking of me .
I'm tired of sitting in my corner of misery .
I'm tired of the happiness that just comes occasionally .
I'm just tired , drained and exhausted . mentally and physically .
But as i think about it now , i've always been living so cautiously , following the rules and just keeping up with the good girl persona .
I guess the closest i've ever walked with danger was being close to you .
You're the edge , my walk with danger .
YOU ARE READING
A Letter To Him .
RandomHer words hold the truth , showing her vulnerability and fragility . Her words shows the growth within her , her strength in tragedy . She was strong enough to love him , even though he didn't love her . She was strong enough to stay by him , even w...
