City of Secrets | kpop mafia au

Chapter 25

We're going to try and update as much as possible, but being multi's , everyone seems to be having a comeback, not that we're complaining. However, my bank account is about to be emptied rip my savings! Who thought loving kpop would be so expensive. Also I wouldn't suggest watching Jaehyun's cover of 'I like me better' while on your period, I was sobbing by myself last night for hours, who made that man so perfect? Ahaha
Enjoy the chapter,
Ash xxxx

TW - descriptions of eating disorder that some readers may find uncomfortable

Maddie sighed as she entered the girls bathroom, everyone else at lunch. She felt nauseous and fragile, it was like someone had taken control her racing brain and was forcing her body to move in a way she didn't want it to. Maddie was overwhelmed with thousands of emotions that she couldn't keep at bay, the mess that was her brain made her feel out of control so another part of her took over, doing all it knew to regain that feeling of control even if it was just for a moment.

Maddie stumbled into a stall of the empty bathroom, immediately locking the door behind her. Her knees collapsed under her and she slumped to the ground, her heavy breaths ricocheting off the tiled walls of the bathroom. She felt horribly hot and a sticky sweat began to rise on her skin. She tugged off her blazer and tossed it onto the grimy floor next to her, pulling her long hair off the back of her neck, instinctively pulling into a low pony tail.

As if reflex to this action, and to this feeling she moved into her knees in front of the toilet bowl, tracing the outline of her lips with her first two fingers. Without hesitating she slid her fingers into her mouth before thrusting them to the back of her mouth, her sharp nails hitting the back of her throat. She repeated the process again and again, her useless gags and coughing filling the space, the sound bouncing off the acoustics and ringing in her ears.

Then suddenly she felt it happen, she quickly moved her fingers out of the way as vile vomit rose from her throat and landed in the bowl in front of her, the disgusting smell making her gag again. She repeated the process shoving her saliva slick fingers back into her throat pumping them back and forth until she gagged again, repeating the same horrible feeling as before. As Maddie went to slide her fingers into her mouth again she heard the sound of the door to the bathroom opening, followed by the sound of voices.

She quickly shuffled away from the door and sat against there wall, her breathing even more uneven than before. She wiped her fingers on the tissue and shoved it in the bowl, as she did so she noticed her red and cut up knuckle from where her teeth had continuously grazed the skin.

"I heard that she was a criminal" the two girls conversation finally sparked Maddie's attention "and she had to leave her home country and start fresh here"

"That would make sense, she has that sort of criminal energy" the other girl hummed, Maddie immediately knew they were talking about her, you'd have to be stupid to think otherwise.

"She even has the nerve to be so rude to Hyunjin like that. Did you see the other day?"

"No but I heard about it, I was in her class on Monday when she was sent to Mr Suh's office"

"No way really? I heard she went crazy"

"It's probably all for attention"

"That's probably why she's so obsessed with Hyunjin too"

"Girls like that shouldn't get the golden locker"