Confessions of a Queen Bee

23

"Please Ivy! We need your help. Especially since Jess is going away. We can't do it without you." Faye pleads as she hangs over the side of Nora's bed in desperation.

"No Faye I'm not allowed to. My mum will kill me." She won't, she actually thinks it would be good for me to get back to my usual activities. It's just me. I hate the thought.

"Please. Please. Please. Please. Nora help me out." Faye caries on. 

"Honestly, we do need you Ives." Nora agrees.

We are all sat around Nora's bedroom, waiting for Jess. Wednesday nights have become movie nights with the girls. 

I had a therapy session with Dr Halpin before I came, which was a bit of a head fuck but the girls are distracting me. Unfortunately for me, they want me to join them in representing the school cheering for the football team this Friday. 

There is nothing they can say to make me want to do it, I used to be the top girl, but when I was off, Jess took my place and she has been doing great. I quit the team telling everyone that my mum was being strict and saying I needed to focus on my studies. 

I can't stand the thought of doing it again, but I really, really don't want to let the girls down.

They've been really helpful recently. 

"What would I have to do?" I ask. 

"Everything that you used to do, what Jess now does. But Jess isn't going to be there." Faye says dramatically. Jess is going to visit her grandparents the minute the bell goes on Friday afternoon. Her parents are picking her up and then they're off. Which means she can't do the game.

The thing is, I know if I agree to this then they will then want me to come to the party Friday. And for obvious reasons, I don't want to do that.

"Let me think about it." I say and Faye smiles in excitement, knowing that that is my way of saying I will probably do it.

I will just have to deal with it when it comes, I have a couple of days to prepare myself anyway.

I haven't heard anything from Jackson since he left mine the other night. He went home about ten when my parents started closing down the house for the night. My mum had hugged me before bed, telling me that she was sorry for being strange with my friend, that she was just so thrilled to see me happy again. I was happy that night.

Then things got bad again. But I feel like that's normal. The lows and highs. 

It's been a while since I had fun like that. So I was grateful for any spark of happiness I got to touch. 

That's why I was a little thrown off why Jackson didn't come to school today, but I knew he was having a hard week so I just recon it is down to that. 

I was going to text him earlier but I didn't actually want to annoy him.  I had pretty much forced him to open up to me, which although I was happy that he did, I didn't want to push my luck today. I knew I wouldn't want to be bugged.

"So Ivy..." Nora started and I looked up from my phone wearily.

"Mhm?" I question.

"Faye and Jess told me about Jackson."

"Jackson?" I question sitting up.

"Yeah, I didn't believe it but then you two went off together the other day after the whole Jayden thing and I mean I can see it now."

"Pardon?" I say unimpressed. Looking at Faye I shake my head at her. "I told you guys there was nothing going on."

Faye sighs dramatically and pouts at me. This just makes me more confused. Why do they keep bringing him up?