Elevator - w2s

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( its all my fault )

"Lexi?" Josh asked, he had a concerned look in his face and I realised the guys were now there.

"That was the last thing he said to me," I said and tears threatened to drop. "Until I got the phone call." This time a tear did drop. "I love him, but.. he didn't love me, not after that night," I said and another tear dropped. "Stop crying." I told myself shaking my head, making a stupid noise and wiping the tear from my cheek.

"It's okay to cry sometimes," Ethan said.

"I will not let my emotions get the best of me," I said, "crying is weak and disgusting, I hate it"

"We don't want them to spiral out of control do we," Josh joked.

"Oh shush," I joked back.

"Come back to ours Lexi?" Cal asked.

"well I would bu-" I began.

"She'll come," Josh interrupted. "She needs to work on her social skills."

"I do not, I just prefer to be alone, nobody to hurt you then. I've hacked the system." I said and a couple of the guys laughed.

"Yes you do, you have no mates," Josh said.

"Well it's either that or to lie. And that doesn't go well, as shown by my past. You, of anyone, should know," I said and laughed. "If you really want to hang out with me so bad, you can come to my flat."

"Sounds good," Tobi said and we headed back. We walked back and we all got outside my door.

"The living room is over there and the bathroom is through that corridor. Anyone want any food?" I asked, "I'll just bring in some snacks."

I walked into the kitchen, followed by Josh and Vik as they said they would help me with the snacks. "What are these for?" Vik asked pointing to my lithium pills. I walked over to them and quickly took them away, hiding them behind my back. I looked over to Josh for help. He shrugged.

"Urm, well I-" I said trying to make up an excuse. It was failing.

"Just tell him, he won't care," Josh said from behind me. "You can trust him, nothing's going to be spread."

"Well I, I'm.. I am, well um bipolar," I said looking down.

"Who's bipolar?" Ethan asked walking into the kitchen. I began coughing. I turned around to quickly put the tablets in my pocket, hoping to somehow put them in the bathroom at some point. I saw out of the corner of my eye that Josh nodded his head over to where I was standing.

"Josh, whats wrong with you. Why would you tell him, your the only person that knows, apart from Vik now." I said calmly.

"You know your still the same person to us right?" Ethan asked.

Your not the sister I used to have..

"I-I'm going to the bathroom." I walked over to my en suite and lifted up the toilet lid. I got my pills from out of my pocket and opened the lids, pouring all of them down. Before I had comprehended what I have done, I flushed the toilet. Regret. Regret is what I felt. I put the container in the bin and walked over to the sink, washed my face under the water and patted it dry with a towel.

"Hey, listen, me and Vik don't see you any differently you know, your still you and that's all that matters along with your health. So I just wanted to make sure you knew you can trust us." He said and I nodded. We walked back into the kitchen to find Josh sat waiting for us obviously.

"Lexi, I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking, please-" he began. I just hugged him and he shut up.

"I trust you, and if you trust them, then I trust them." I said and sighed.

"Good, because otherwise I would have to force you until you did," he said and I laughed.

We brought in the snacks and I stood to the side. "What do you want to do?" I asked. "Watch a movie, play on Xbox, just watch tv, play a board game, you name it I'll sort it out."

"What movies do you have?" Simon asked.

"I have Netflix and quite a few DVDs so I'll go and get them," I said walking away. I grabbed all of them, there were about 12 horror movies and that was it, I never really watched movies.

"I have these, you choose," I said.

"IT, Nightmare on Elm street.. you've got some scary films here," JJ said.

"I don't find movies entertaining whatsoever so if I have to watch one it will be horror or crime. I've always been like that. I used to watch horror 18s when I was 7 because everything a 7 year old would watch was so boring." I said whilst shrugging.

"Well, we will watch the Nun," Tobi said.

"Could you pick any other but, the last time I watched it I turned it off, it's not entertaining." I said and they all nodded. We finally decided on orphan on Netflix instead, so I turned my Xbox on and went on Netflix and selected the film.

I sat in between Harry and Josh, and began watching the film. It was one of the only movies I can watch more than 5 times, I knew every jump scare and what would happen. I put a blanket over me harry and Josh, but I also have the other guys blankets. I turned the lights off and began watching it.

After about twenty five minutes of the movie, I began to become tired. I was struggling to keep my eyes open when I felt myself drop my head onto someone, I didn't care who. I felt their arm wrap around the back if the sofa, so I immediately thought it was Josh as I knew he wouldn't shrug me off. Arguing came from the tv but my brain slowly shut off all the noises and I fell into darkness..