Confusion (Sequel to I Wish...)

Chapter 7

Chapter song: Everything You're Not by Demi Lovato
(Becca's pov)
"Have a seat, bae"
Justin motioned me to sit on the swings.
"Do you hear that?"
He asked softly.
"What?"
I glanced at him then looked at the ground.
"...Hey, what's the situation, whoa?
I'm just tryna make a little conversation,
Why the hesitation, whoa?
Tell me what your name is? For your information..."[sings Take You]
Justin sang. That's something that I actually WANT to hear from Justin.
"...You still got it"
I smiled weakly at him.
"I guess I do"
He shrugged and grinned.
"Can I tell you something?"
I don't trust Justin, but I will tell him this.
"Anything"
He stopped and listened intensely. I couldn't tell if he really meant it, or if he was just being a kiss-ass.
"It's not that personal, but I think you should know since your the only one that knows...my anxiety's worse"
I lowered my voice.
"...Worse as in...how?"
He lowered his eyes then flickered them back at me.
"As in...I can't sleep a full night without waking up. I can't concentrate at school. Justin, I'm scared that out of nowhere, I might have a panic attack. That's how bad it is"
I didn't look at him, but I swallowed hard.
"Damn...Becca, I'm so so sorry. This is all my fault. I can't-"
"Don't worry about it. I just think you should know. You're the only one who does"
I muttered, dropping the subject.
"Give me a hug"
He stood up and kneeled in front of me. Damn, he's gotten so much taller. I hugged him tight.
"It'll get better. I promise, Becca"
Justin whispered.
"How do you know?"
My voice cracked.
"...I'll make it better. Becca, I will make it up to you. We're best friends, right?"
He looked at me hopefully.
"Friends"
I corrected him. I can't trust him yet.
"Ok...just don't worry. I'll do whatever you want.
He tried wipe my eyes, but I pushed his hand away. If the makeup comes off, everything will get worse.
"I don't know what I want, Justin"
I sighed and hugged him again.
"Shh, it's ok, Becca..."
His warm body pressed against mine. It made a wave of fear yet uneasiness engulf me.
"...You wanna go back home?"
He asked, and I nodded.
"Ok, let's go back home, bae"
He put his arm around me and led me home. How should I feel about all this? I don't know. Giving in sounds so easy, but pushing away from someone who's trying to be friends with me is so difficult.
"See you tomorrow?"
He stopped at my porch.
"...Ok"
Maybe time together with Justin will tell me if I should trust him or leave him.
"I'll text you"
He kissed my cheek, making me move away. I don't like that.
"See you later"
He waved.
"...See you later"
I turned around and walked inside. I laid on my bed and sighed. This was so unexpected. This was definitely not plan. I'm gonna get myself hurt. No, not if we're just friends. But that's what everyone says, and we all know what happens next. Maybe there's a difference between just friends and best friends. Plus, I need a friend right now. Ryan and Chaz are always checking on me. Isn't that good enough? Yes. I just wanna see if I can forgive Justin. He's really changed. He doesn't look like the Justin I saw last. He sure doesn't act like him either. He thinks he can get me to do anything, that he can get away with anything. Justin never thought like that when I saw him last. Justin was sweet, trustworthy, loyal, innocent back then. He loved me. I don't know what he is now. Blind, careless, stupid. Who knows?
(Justin's pov)
I went to Ryan's house, and Selena stormed in front of me.
"What the hell, Justin! I thought you loved me!"
She shouted and smacked my shoulder.
"What?"
I gave Ryan and Chaz a confused look. They just rubbed their temples in annoyance.
"Are you cheating on me?! Who was the girl you were with today?!"
She screamed and shoved her phone at me. I saw a picture of Becca and me today. Shit. Fucking paparazzi.
"She's just an old friend. Ask Ryan and Chaz"
I tried to defend myself.
"Am I not good enough?!"
She started to cry.
"Baby, stop. I'm not cheating on you. I swear we just went for lunch as friends. She's an old friend, babe. That's all"
I hugged Selena tight and secure. She had already told me she doesn't like Becca.
"Don't leave me"
Selena hugged me tight.
"I won't. I love you"
I kissed her head.
"Ok. Can you take me to dinner?"
She asked innocently with a cute pout.
"Of course, baby"
I led her into the bathroom to get dressed.
"She's been like that all day"
Chaz stated.
"Stop overreacting. She's just upset"
I muttered irritably.
"Dude, can't you see that she's using you? It's so obvious. We're not saying this to be mean, but as your best friends"
Ryan looked at me annoyed yet sorry.
"Everyone says that, but I can't believe it. Selena's never done me wrong. Just respect the fact that I love her"
I sighed and grabbed Selena's hand.
"If you'll excuse us, we'll be eating dinner"
I held Selena close as I walked out. Fucking lies.
(Becca's pov)
-8am-
I guess Justin was "busy" last night, because he never texted me. I don't care. It wasn't surprising to me. Selena and Justin were spotted eating dinner last night. I'm not stupid. I know he'd drop everything to help Selena. I'm used to pain already. I prepared myself to go to Max's. I sighed and walked out the door. I walked until a girl approached me. Her dark hair and thick makeup told me who it was. Selena Gomez.
"Listen, bitch, Justin's mine. He's my boyfriend, not yours. Leave him alone"
She hissed in my face.
"I'm not trying to do anything. I'm trying to do the opposite"
I glared menacingly.
"Just stay away from my boyfriend. Don't even think about going near him"
She snapped.
"Whatever. Everyone knows that you're using him"
I muttered and tried to walk past her.
"Shut the hell up!"
She slapped me, causing my already-swollen cheek to sting.
"What the fuck?!"
I held my cheek as the stinging brought tears to my eyes. Selena started crying and holding her cheek too. I realized that Justin was approaching us. She better not.
"What's going on?"
Justin studied our positions. I quickly hid my face with my hair. I'm not wearing makeup.
"Justin, she just hit me. Am I ok, baby?"
Selena faked crying and held her cheek. Well, she is an actress.
"Did you hit her, Becca?"
Justin looked at me in confusion.
"Fuck no. She hit m-"
"Don't believe her, Justin. She's lying"
Selena fake cried.
"Why would you hit her, Becca?"
Justin held Selena in his arms.
"Are you kidding me?! Justin, can't you see that she's using you?! She just wants money and fame!"
I argued and defended myself while hiding the best I could. I couldn't help it. I don't even know why I care.
"You believe that too? Becca, just because you're jealous, doesn't mean you should hit my-"
"You know what?! Believe what you want. I could care less"
I walked away in anger and hatred. Justin might've got a glance or two at my face, but he was too angry. He's too busy kissing Selena's ass to realize anything, to see the damage done to me, to see the signs of abuse on me.

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