Meeting Demi Lovato

Chapter 34

Demi's POV
The producers who I sent the song to said I could go to the studio today and record so that's what I'm gonna do. Even though I'm a little nervous to go out in public, because the last time I went out I relapsed, I know I need to face my fears at some point. Sine today was just going be be about recording music and chill in the studio, I opted for a hoodie and leggings then black adidas trainers. I tied my hair back and went to the kitchen where Y/n was.

"Hi D, are you alright today?" she asked whilst preparing chicken for our dinner later on. I nodded and gave her a smile before walking towards her and pecked her cheek. "I'm going to the studio now, I should be home in time for dinner." "Alright, be safe I love you." "I love you too." and with that, I left the kitchen and walked out the house to the SUV where Max was waiting for me. "Demi. How have you been?" I gave him a smile "I've been okay, I guess." We sat in the car and Max started to drive. "I'm not buying it, what's up?" I sighed knowing I'm gonna need to tell my team at some point. "Okay you're right. The other week I relapsed with Drugs and Alcohol and Self Harm. I'm trying to stay sober again and my family and Y/n already know." I thought Max would've reacted badly but he just nodded and said he's here for me. I was so grateful at that moment that Max didn't ask lots of questions because I really didn't want to talk about it all. The rest of the drive we were silent, but not in a uncomfortable way.

We made it to the studio and I went to the room where I'm meeting up with the producers. "Demi!!" they said once I walked into the room, "Hey guys." We talked for a few minutes while they set up everything for me to record. Once they finished I walked into the booth and Put the headphones on and sat down on the seat. "Mic check?" "Mic check." I replied. "Alright, whenever you're ready D" I took a deep breath and began singing the emotional lyrics.

Once I finished singing I felt tear drops fall onto my hand so I wiped my cheeks dry before taking off the headphones and walking into the room where the producers were. "That was great D, really raw and powerful." I smiled and sat down on the couch and went on my phone. I was scrolling through Instagram but I couldn't help but wonder why they didn't ask me the meaning behind the song, Isn't it obvious? I shook the thoughts out my head and did more recording in the studio until it was time for me to leave.

When I made it back home I went to the living room where Y/n was with the dogs. I sat beside her and cuddled her side. "Baby are you okay?" She asked with worry in her voice. I shook my head as I could feel tears well up in my eyes. "Do you want to talk about it?" She asked as she wrapped her arms around me. I sighed and nodded knowing I'll feel better once I do. "Today I recorded a song that I'm going to release that admits I relapsed and I'm just scared of what people will say, especially my fans." She wiped my cheeks because tears were falling down them, then she spoke. "Demi you're so strong for recording that song and your fans and everyone else will still love you and care about you. You have nothing to be scared about." I looked up to her face and kissed her lips before hugging her tight. After cuddling for a while we both got up and went to eat dinner.

Once we finished eating, Y/n went to the kitchen to clean the dishes so I took this as the perfect opportunity to go to the bathroom. I quickly ran to the bathroom upstairs, far away from Y/n, then I locked the door and leaned over the toilet. I put two of my fingers deep in my mouth and threw up all the toxins I ate a few minutes ago. I washed my hands and face, flushed the toilet and brushed my teeth before unlocking the door and going back downstairs. "Where did you go in such a hurry?" she asked me once I was in the kitchen. "I uhm..I went to the bathroom.." I quickly spoke then went to the living room to find Batman and Ella. I sat down but I could feel her presence behind me, I knew she wanted to talk more but I couldn't tell her what I did.

She sat down beside me and wouldn't stop staring at me. "Babe, what?" I asked a little frustrated. "I just wanted to know if you did something you shouldn't have in the bathroom. But we don't have to talk about it now." I gave her an apologetic smile and kissed her cheek. "I'm sorry babe I'm just not feeling like myself since I relapsed. I know you're only trying to help and I'm so grateful for that." she hugged me and nodded. "I understand that babe, and I'm always here when you want to talk." I smiled at her before leaning back on the couch. I love Y/n with all my heart and I know she loves me back, but sometimes I wonder does she actually love me?

A/n I'm sorry this chapter has taken SO long to be published, I;ve been dealing with a lot of shit and I just didn't want to write. Also THANK YOU FOR 3K READS!!! Love you guys! stay strong.