Finding the Light

Falling Apart

I'm sitting in a chair, my hands are tied behind my back and my feet are tied to the cold metal legs beneath me. The silk scarf covering my eyes is barely letting any light through, but I can see his shadow moving in front of me. Fear takes over and I begin to sweat. He is being completely silent except for the sound of his feet hitting the floor. I wish I knew where I was. I don't remember being taken anywhere, and I have no idea who could be here with me. He comes to stand in front of me, he doesn't touch me, and he doesn't speak. He just stands there. I am paralyzed with fear, and I can feel a single tear spill from my eye and run down my cheek. His thumb comes up and catches it; when his skin touches mine it is almost as cold as the icy voice that speaks to me now.
"Why are you crying? Has the severity of your situation finally been realized?" I know that voice. But why would he have me tied and blindfolded? Why would Jake do this to me? I try to speak but something is shoved into my mouth once it starts to open. My tears fall more freely now. Why would he do this? I hear him sigh, a disgusted sound.
"Stop crying, it's pathetic and also very unbecoming. I knew you were just playing a game when you pretended to be strong." Charlie? What is happening, where did Jake go? No this can't be, Charlie cares about me, I know he does, but his voice is unmistakable, I would know it anywhere. I can't see anymore shadows in the room, just the one standing in front me. I'm sobbing now, trying to scream, but the gag is making it impossible. I need to steady myself, crying isn't going to solve this problem, and it won't get me out of here. I take a few deep breaths and my body slowly stops shaking.
"Finally done sobbing I see. Good, the sound was starting to make me sick. Just the sight of you is making me sick." Oh, Eric, why? Why is he here? They're all here; the three men who I have wrecked. I ruined each of them with the dark cloud that is my soul. I hang my head in defeat, and another sob escapes my lips. A hard slap stings the side of my face. I can feel my lip starting to swell, and my nose is dripping blood down into my mouth.
"If you make one more sound, I swear I will kill you. You did this to yourself. You were the one who ran around being a whore." My whole body freezes when he starts to speak. I start to sweat and my heart is racing. No. This isn't real. Another slap to the side of my head. My ears are ringing now, and I'm getting dizzy. I can feel the darkness taking me over, and I know I will pass out, but a hand goes to my throat. He squeezes hard, and the realization hits that I will not be leaving this room alive. As he presses tighter on my windpipe, making it harder for me to catch a breath; I hear the other three start to laugh. He slaps me again, releasing some of the pressure from my neck to make sure I don't black out completely.
"She should have known this was coming." Jake spits the words. No Jake, I never saw this coming.
"She ruined me, she deserves every blow." I can hear the venom in Eric's voice, I knew I would break him.
"She pretended to love me." Charlie sounds a million miles away. I wish I could reach him, touch him, and then maybe he would know I wasn't pretending. I care about him. I care about all of them. I would never hurt them. Why would they be here doing this now? Why would they be with Him? He removes the gag from my mouth and I take a gulp of air.
"Anything to say?" The only thing I can do at this point is beg. I try to speak through my small pitiful sobs.
"Please, how do I stop this?" Suddenly I am blinded by a bright light as the scarf is ripped from my eyes. I blink trying to adjust to the brightness. My eyes find his, and I know it's over. I withdraw into myself, and he knows he has won, he has total control of me. He grins down at me, the most evil sneer I have ever seen. He leans in close and the hot air of his breath makes my skin crawl. He takes a deep breath through his nose, inhaling the smell of my fear. Then he comes back to center and looks straight into my soul.
"You can't stop this." Chuck throws his head back and laughs. Jake, Eric, and Charlie are all standing behind him, cheering him on. Tears fall onto my face, this is the end. I then realize they are right. I did this to myself, and it makes me cry even harder.
"Cry all you want, but you are mine." Chuck shoves a black bag over my head and everything goes dark.