The New Addition L.S

Ch.17

Harry

"Ni I'm sorry I yelled. I didn't mean it" I say.
"It's fine but why can't I just go in there?" He asks.
"I don't know Okay? You will when I'm done fixing it." I say.
"No you should have any secrets we don't keep things from each other here." He yells.
"Niall." Zayn says.
"No Zayn he acts like someone died in there!" Niall yells.
Someone did.
"Niall please don't." I beg him.
"No you have this big fancy house and you won't let me in this one room!" He yells.
"Yea and there's a reason for that and I will tell you but please don't not right now." I say.
"No fuck You Harry!" He yells and goes for the door.
He swings it open.
"NIALL!" I yell. But he looks in shocked and so are the boys.
"Harry what is this?" Liam asks.
I can't even respond. I feel my stomach drop and the room is spinning.
I slide down the wall near the door.
And start hyperventilating.
Why?
"Harry what's wrong?!" Liam says taking everyone's attention away from the room.
"Harry?!"
I can't breathe. It feels like someone is stabbing my heart. I haven't been in that room since I found her dead in it.
Louis runs over to my side.
"I-I can't breathe" I choke out.
My throat is tightening. It feels like there is a bolder on my chest.
"Harry. Breathe it's okay!" Zayn yells.
"I-Inhaler!" I try to get out pointing to me room.
Niall's runs for it.
I feel like I'm gonna pass out.
When he comes back Louis brings it up to my mouth.
I take in two puffs.
I let out a breath feeling relief and can breathe again.
Now they are all surrounded me. And her door is still open.
"Harry I'm so so so sorry I should have listened" Niall's says.
"It's fine not your fault." I say.
"Yes it please I'm sorry forgive me" He pleads.
"Ni I'm not mad it would've happened either way." I say.
"Can you tell us what just happened?" Zayn says.
"Yea I just wanna go in there first." I say.
"Are you sure we don't have to? I can sleep with Niall or something" Zayn says.
"Don't be silly Zayn" I say getting up.
I take a deep breath and walk over to her room.
I close my eyes before opening them.
I don't want to.
I can't.
But I still do.
I open them and my stomach drops.
Her beautiful room.
Still so many memories good and bad.
I walk in tears already streaming done my face. I feel the boys follow.
I first notice her bed.
There is still an indent from where she was last laying.
Where I found her.
"Harry who's room is this?" Niall asks.
"It's um Gemma's." I say.
I walk over to her night stand. With her phone on it. And her glasses. And her laptop.
I walk over to her dresser I see her brush. God I loved her hair.
Her makeup still here although she never needed it.
I walk over to her closet all her clothes still hung.
I grab a shirt and take a big wif of it.
Gosh it smells just like her.
I let out a sob.
I notice all her paintings still lined up. The day before she died she was deciding which one to give for my mom for her birthday.
Her paintings were beautiful.
"Harry?" Zayn says. From the door.
I look up at them.
"Can you guys leave?" I ask.
They walk out leaving me sobbing holding her shirt.
I fall to the ground in a ball holding my knees sobbing uncontrollably.
I hear someone walk in. Fuck.
It's Zayn.
He walks over and hold me while I sob in his chest.
"I miss her so much!" I sob.
"Ssshhhh it's okay." He says rubbing my back.
"I-it's not I can't do this anymore Zayn I just can't!" I sob.
"Harry you can and you will okay?!"
I just continue sobbing. Until it's just me hiccuping.
I get out of his hold still sitting next to him.
I wipe my eyes, and breathe out.
"You guys should leave." I say.
"No I'm leaving Harry not while your like this. I have seen your wrists I can help." He says.
My stomach drops. He saw them?
"No you can't Zayn you don't understand!"
"Harry I may not get why you do it but I want you to stop." He says.
"Please don't tell the boys." I plead.
He nods and pulls me into a hug.
"Okay you should tell us what happened they are freaked out down there." He says.
"Okay but first let's take all this out." I say.
We go down stairs and grab some extra boxes. All the boys are looking at me sympathetically.
"Can you guys help pack?" I ask holding a ton if boxes.
"Yea of course" they all say and we go upstairs.
"Okay um Niall you can pack up the clothes, Liam you can do her organizer, Louis her vanity, and Zayn her organizer." I say.
And they all nod.
I first take off her pillows. It smells just like her. I put them in a box. This hurts so bad.
I then pull of her comforter.
Gosh she lived this things.
I fold it up with her sheets and put in her box.
We spend hours cleaning everything out. We put it all in the attic.
The whole room is finally empty. The curtains, blinds all gone.
Even the mattress it's just an empty room.
"Okay let's start painting tomorrow." I say.
"Haz we want to stay with you tonight and we aren't taking no for answer. So let's all go watch a movie." Liam says.
I nod and we all make our way to living room.

We eat some popcorn and soon Zayn, Liam, and Niall are all asleep on the floor with a ton a blanket and blow up mattresses.
Me and Louis are still watching the movie and some how we ended up cuddling.
He was laying down on the couch and I was snuggled up in his side with my head on his chest while he ran his fingers through my hair.
It's really soothing actually, too much has happened today and this just brings me so much comfort.
I accidentally let a choked out sob fall through my lips just thinking about Gemma.
Louis immediately notices and looks down at me crying quietly on his chest.
"Hey haz whats wrong?" He says conceded and takes his hands to my cheeks to wipe away my tears.
"I'm sorry today had just sucked." I say sniffling now my crying has calmed down, I guess the boys are deep sleepers.
"Hey love it's alright we all have bad days." He says sympathetically wiping my tears as I lay back down on his chest.
"Yea I know I'm sorry I just didn't mean to drag you guys into this." I tell him.
"Hey no darling it's okay we are here for you." He says and softly kisses my head, I don't think he wanted me to know but I felt it.
"She was my sister." I say to him.
"Yeah?"
"Yeah she was gorgeous Lou." I say back. "I believe you Haz." He says and rubs my back a little more.
"Try to get some rest we can all talk tomorrow." He says and I nod in response.
"Do you w-want me to move? Oh god I'm totally in your space I'm so sorry!" I freak out.
"No no no please don't move, I don't want you to. I want to snuggle you." He says.
"Are you sure?" I ask.
"I would be mad if you didn't." He says.
He eventually soothes me to sleep by rubbing circle in my back and running his fingers though my hair.

Cute Larry moments:))