The New Addition L.S

Ch.59

Harry

They're dead.

My grandparents who meant the world to me are dead.
Just like everyone else in my life.

They all leave.

*****

After getting to my house I find my mum and stepdad crying in the living room.

"Mom what happened?" I ask her and Robin and tear slipping down my face.
"Harry please s-sit down." He says crying.
"No no no mum please don't tell me, please don't tell me what I think" I cry to her tears streaming down my face.
"Harry please can we talk." Robin asks.
"No just tell me please! I can't do this anymore!" I cry remembering how they told me about Gemma.
"They're dead Harry. They passed away a few hours ago they were in a car accident." Robin says soothing my mum.

And that's how I ended up locked in my bathroom on the floor sobbing.
"Harry can you please open up, I don't want you to hurt yourself!" Robin my stepdad yells though the door.
"I won't okay!? Just leave me alone I need sometime" I sob.
"Please Harry just don't do anything." He pleads.
"I said I won't, just please be with my mum she needs you right now" I sob into my hands.
I hear him walk away after I said that.

I grab my razor blade and bring it up to my clean wrists.
I don't know if should really do this, but I've never known another way to cope.
I just need Louis I don't know what to do.
I can't call him. What if he leaves me? What if he leaves me like everyone else? They don't care about me anymore.

I glide the blade across my wrist letting out a sigh. It been so long. Months. But it feels too good to let go.

Keep going.

Braydon

"Hey who is this?" I ask the caller.
"It's Robin Harry just got home and we told him." He says. Shit.
"Oh yea I'm so sorry for your loss, they felt like family to me I can't imagine what you guys are going through." I say an tear falling down my face.
It's true I also grew up when them, my grandparents died when I was at a young age so I never really knew them but Harry's made it their mission to make me feel like they were my own.
"Thank you Braydon we appreciate it. But I think you should come over. Harry he uh he locked himself in the bathroom, I'm just scared he's gonna do something even though he said he wouldn't." He say sighing.
"Yeah of course I'll be over right now." I say.

As soon as I get to Harry's I knock on the door and Robin let's me in.
"Hey man I'm so sorry." I say hugging him.
"It's alright but Harry is still up there." He says and nod making my way upstairs.

"Hey haz you wanna open the door?" I ask him knocking on the door.
"It's me Braydon." I say.
I hear him sniffling.
"I-I can't you'll be mad." He sobs out.
I already know he did something and I could never be mad at him.
"I could never be mad it's okay if you did something just let me in so I can help." I say soothing.
"Promise?" He cry's.
"Always."

I hear him shuffling around until I hear the door click.
I see him open it.
His eyes are red and puffy, tears streaming down his face, his face is all red and blotchy.
He looks broken.
"Hey come here." I say opening my arms until he falls into them sobbing.
I lead him back into the bathroom and close the door behind us.
"It's okay haz, I promise you'll be okay" I whisper in his ear rubbing his back.
"Hey let's sit down okay?" I ask and I feel him nod so I slowly sit him and myself down on the ground.
I first notice the blade next to me so I put it on the counter.
"Harry let's clean your wrists okay" I ask him and he nods.
I get a wet cloth and look at his wrists.
It's pretty bad, but it could be worse.
"Ow" he winces as I clean his arms.
"I'm sorry" he says.
"Hey don't be sorry we will get through this." I tell him.
"Louis h-he's gonna leave me cause I-I did this oh god he's not gonna want me anymore." I sobs.
"That's not true I promise you he loves you so much." I tell him.
"N-No he doesn't Braydon! He's gonna leave me like bery one else! H-He doesn't want me I'm depressed and I cut myself and I have ugly scars!" He sobs.
"Hey how about I get him on the phone just so you find out how much he loves you?" I ask feeling him nod.

I get into my phone and pull up Louis number I have saved just in case of times like this.
It rings for a few minutes.
"Hey Louis you there?" I ask.
"Yea what's up? Is Harry okay?" He asks frantically.
"Yea he's fine, he next to me on speaker phone." I say.
"Oh okay what's going on?"
"Do you love me Lou?" Harry asks crying.
"Of course baby, I love you more than anything and I always will." Louis says.
"Your not gonna leave?" Harry asks.
"No never ever baby." Louis says and look over at Harry and he seems to have calmed down.
"Okay Thank you Louis I'm gonna talk to you later?" I ask and he agrees and ends the call.
"How about we get you to bed okay?" I ask Harry and he nods.