The New Addition L.S

Ch.46

Harry

The American leg of the tour had been going on for almost 5 months.
We are going to be going home soon.
Me and Lou are great. We haven't went out to the public only the boys our families and friends know.
And close people on the crew like Lou, Paul, and the music producers.
The fans have been amazing they are all so sweet.
And I'm really proud of myself I haven't self harmed since the incident that's literally 5 months. Yea I have had thoughts about it again but I have never gotten close to doing it.
"You excited to go back Wednesday?" Lou asks me playing with my hair.
We are lying in my bunk cuddling.
"Yeah I am" I say smiling.
"Tomorrow's our last show it's insane." He says.
"Yea it really is, I would have never pictured myself doing this." I say.
"I'm really happy I met you." He says.
"Imagine if you still hated me" I say laughing.
"Ugh I love you so much baby." He says kissing me.
"I love you so much too. More than you will ever know. Ya know I'm 5 months clean today" I say smiling.
"Yea I noticed and I'm so proud of you. Seriously babe I knew you could do it your so strong." He says kissing me.
"Thank you Lou." I giggle.

"So usually we have a big party and have fun after the last show. And I know you can't really drink, but I want you to have fun so do you think you can maybe skip your meds?" He asks.
I think about it for a second, I don't think anything bad would happen.
"Never mind ugh I'm sorry that was such a stupid question. Of course you need them just f-" I cut him off.
"Yea I can skip a day Loubear don't worry baby." I say.
"Are you sure? I don't want anything bad to happen or you have a panic attack before the show or something." He says.
"Lou I'll be fine and if something does happen which it won't you guys will be there." I say.
"Okay baby we should go to sleep." He says and I nod and we fall asleep in each other's arms.

We wake up early since we have rehearsal at the stadium and the concert later.
I have to skip my meds today. It feels weird to.
I feel jittery I keep picking at things or playing with my clothes.
"Haz you good?" Liam asks.
"Yea just nervous" I say.
"Don't be you got this, it's just like any other show." He says outing his arm around me for comfort.
"Yea" I say letting out a shaky breathe.

It's an hour till the show and the nerves are really kicking in.
"Lou I'm scared." I say panicking.
"It will be fine baby." He says.
"No w-what if I mess up?!" I say pacing around the room.
"You won't mess up." Niall's says.
"W-Why are you guys being so calm?!" I yell stressed.
"Harry what's gotten into you your never like this?" Zayn asks.
I look at Louis scared.
"I-I didn't take my medicine." I choke out to them.
"Haz why?" Liam asks.
"Cause I wanted to have f-fun with you guys later." I say sitting down with my head in my hands.
"Haz it will be okay. Here take your inhaler before." Louis says.
"You know that's medicine for breathing but for calming me down right?" I snap.
They all looked shocked I didn't mean to snap.
"I-I I'm sorry Lou I didn't mean to snap I'm just stressed and." He cuts me off by going over to me and holding me.
"Shhh it's okay. You'll be okay baby." He says.

I eventually calm down. All the boys are still obviously worried but I don't want them to be.
There is 5 more minutes till we go on.
"Okay boys lets do thissss!!" Niall yells.
We get ready and do our group thing. And then run out on the stage.

The show was finished and we run off adrenaline running through us.
"LETS PARTYYY!!" Niall screams.
We all cheer and go to the club.
The club we go to the a very private club you have to be really 'famous' I guess to even be considered.
The paps aren't allowed in for that reason so we are free do do what we want.
Niall, Liam, and Zayn all invited their girlfriends.
And they invited a ton of other celebrities they knew.
We walk into the blaring music and it reeked of weed and liquor.
"Let's get some shotsss!" Louis yelled.
After about 6 shots and 3 beers I'm pretty drunk. I have a low tolerance.
"I LOVE THIS SONG!" I scream to Louis.
I heard wrecking ball come so I dragged Louis to the dance fall where a ton of drunk and sweaty bodies were.
I started screaming the lyrics singing along.
I take Louis hand occasionally and spin him trying to dance.
"I CAME IN LIKE A WRECKING BALL!" I scream.
I could see the boys on the other side of the room laughing at me cheering.
When the song is over we walk back over to the boys.
"Phew" I say out of breathe.
I notice one of Liam's friends smoking a blunt.
"Want a hit?" He asks.
I nod taking it from his inhaling the weed deeply and breathing out.
"Here." He says handing me my own and lighting it.
"Haz are you sure that's a good idea?" Zayn asks.
"This is one of my only nights I can have fun and let loose! Let me live a little!!" I giggle.
"But reminder last time. Alcohol and weed are not good mixed why do you think we're not doing it?" Louis asks.
"It's fine Lou bear don't worry." I say smiling and taking a hit from my blunt.
Soon after it really started to kick in I finished the blunt. I even let Niall have a few hits he didn't really like it though.
"NIALL LETS DANCE!" I scream over the music.
He just giggles and we get to and go to the dance floor.
We also get a few more shots.

After about 20 mins of us dancing Paul came over letting us know we had to leave in 5 minutes to catch our flight.
"Harry did you even hear me?!" He yelled.
"Huh?" I giggled.
He walks over and examines my face.
"Harry what the fuck! Are you high?!" He yelled.
My eyes are probably bloodshot.
"Yes sir mr.pauly and very pretty much drunk" I slur.
"Fucking hell Harry your not even legal drinking age here!" He yelled at me.
"Whoopsies!" I slur.
"I'm gonna have to sneak you out here take these." He said handing me sunglasses.
I put them in giggling.
"Woahhh everything just got a little darker" I slur amused.
The see the boys laugh at me. They definitely aren't as intoxicated as me at all. But I wanted to take advantage.