The New Addition L.S

Ch.15

Louis

A few weeks go by of us just recording.
Harry still isn't really close with us which make it awkward like all the time. But we have been hanging out with him more often, and trying to figure some things out about him so we can warm up and make him comfortable being here. Sometimes he comes over but we haven't gone to his place since the first time we went.
We are all sitting in the studio waiting for time to pass. Harry and I have actually gotten a lot closer than the rest of the lads and him. Right now his face is nuzzled into my neck, he told me he wanted to take a nap cause he was so tired so I offered to be his pillow. Obviously it doesn't mean anything I'm am definitely not attracted to him in no way.
Feeling his warm breathe against my skin just makes me shiver, and his lips are beautify parted and- oh god I need to stop this is Harry we're taking about!
"Harry you should move in with us." Liam says randomly getting up and poking Harry in the shoulder.
"Oi don't do that!" I whisper yell at him and slap his hand away from the sleeping boy.
"Oh um." Harry says waking up and leaving his position against my neck fuck you liam.

"I mean it was just a thought we want to get closer with you before the tour. You don't have to though." Liam says.
"Why don't you guys just move in with me? I mean I have a ton of space?" Harry says.
"I guess that's a good idea, but you don't have to just say that because we brought it up." Niall says.
"No I want you guys to I don't like living in such a big house alone anyways." Harry says.
"Okay well when should we?" I ask.
"Whenever you guys want. Next week maybe?" Harry says.
"Yea sounds good we can start packing tomorrow." Zayn says.
"Wait do you have enough room?" Niall asks.
"Yea of course." Harry says.

Harry

I don't have enough room. Well I do but that means I need to go into her room.
I just don't think I can.
"Do you guys want to come over later or something?" I ask.
"Actually me, Liam, and Zayn are going on a triple date with our girlfriends." Niall says.
"Wow Ni you just called me single I'm at least 100 different ways." I say and they all laugh.
"I'll come over." Louis says.
"Okay can we go shopping for the rooms after?" I ask.
"What no you don't need to get us anything for the rooms!" Niall says.
"No it's fine I actually need to make sure they are all set anyways." I say.
"Yea we can go." Louis says.
"Okay well let's head out then." I say.
Louis throws his keys to Zayn and we walk out to my car.
"Um I need paint first so let's go to Home Depot." I say.
"Um okay."
We drive to Home Depot and start picking out some colors.
"How about this light blue?" I ask I might have picked it cause it looks like his eyes.
"Yea good color." Louis responds.
We walk out with 2 cans of paint.
"Okay we need a mattress." I say.
Without him questioning we drive to get a mattress.
"I think this ones good right? King mattress big enough?" I ask.
He nods.
I just need to change that whole room, I need to get rid of everything that's in there if there will be enough space for them.
I let a breathe out and check out. They said it will be sent to my house later on.
"Okay now we need to go to a furniture store"
"Harry I thought you had all your guest rooms what is all this?" Louis asks.
"Yea I um just need to change some stuff. It's an old room and it needs some revamping" I say.
He just nods.
It's not his business anyways.
When we get to the furniture store I buy a ton of things. A new comforter, new pillows, new night stands, lamps, and new small carpet since it's hard wood, new mirror, dresser, curtains, anything I could think of that needed replacing.
"Okay now we have to get all this in" I say.
After a few trips we leave everything in the sitting area room for now. The mattress comes and we leave it with the other stuff.
"Okay what do we do now?" Louis asks.
"I don't know what do you wanna do?" I ask.
"Well what did we just buy all this stuff for?"
"For upstairs obviously" I say.
"No I mean why all your guest rooms are finished." He says.
"Oh yea." I say, I'm not going to tell him why I will do it in my own time.
I feel jittery and anxious at the thought that I have to go in there at some point.
I really don't want to I don't think I can.
I start anxiously tapping my foot and playing with my strings on my hoodie.
"Harry are you okay?" Louis asks snapping me out if it.
"What? Yea I'm fine I just need some water." I say.
I go into the kitchen and get some water. I already took my medicine today so I can't take another one.
Shit. This is so bad I can't focus.
I need to cut fucking hell! Louis needs to leave.
I walk back in to see Louis.
"Hey I'm tired so can I drive you home now?" I ask him.
"Yea sure." He says.
We get in the car and I drive him home and say goodnight.
When I get home I lock the door per usual and run upstairs desperate to feel some sort of relief.
I grab my razor and cut my wrist. I cut a few lines.
Why don't I go a little deeper?
I did a few times actually it felt good. So good, eventually I feel the usual and I clean up. I take a shower and for ready for bed.
I just want to sleep forever honestly.