The New Addition L.S

Ch.50

Harry

I wake and do the same thing I did for the past 4 weeks.
I go to the gym. I go at 5am and stay till almost 7.

I get up and get dressed quietly making sure to wake no one up and I grab my keys, phone, and water and head out the door.

2 and a half hours later and I'm finally done. And with my luck I actually met a girl. Well she famous also but we recognized each other and she's very sweet.

Her name is Kendall.

I get home and do the rest of my routine. I make my way to the bathroom and pull out my razor. Today it's going to be 1 for every time Louis said he loved me. I guess it wasn't even true.
I slice into my skin letting the crimson red blood drip down my tan arm it's beautiful honestly. I don't want to fuck any tattoos up so I always cut around them or where they aren't.
After a while I stop seeing the tan skin and only the crimson so I clean up and shower.
I change and put my bracelets on even though they don't do anything they cover up what my sweatshirt sleeve sometimes forgets.

I change into my skinny jeans and a gray crew neck. Then I just wait in bed. We don't need to be recording for 2 more hours so they should be awake soon.
We are starting our South America tour soon. I've never been there so I'm really excited.
While I'm on twitter I get a text from Kendall.

Kendall: hey it's Kendall! Wanted to know if you wanna meet up later for for lunch?

Me: yes of course! I'm done at the studio at 3 so 3:30 work?

Kendall: yes perfect:))

Okay well that's settled I have my self a lunch date.
I hear someone knock on my door a few minutes later.
"Hey Harry it's Zayn can I come in?" He asks.
"Yea" I say.
He opens the door and closes it after he walks in. And sits next to me in my bed.
"Hey what's up?" He asks.
"Nothing much how about you?" I ask.
"I think I might propose to Perri" he says.
"Really that's amazing man congrats!" I say hugging him.
"Harry how have you um been with everything." He asks obviously scared.
"Fine why?" I ask.
"Well you know Louis"
"Yea well mistakes happen and I guess we were both mistakes he's moved on and so have I no hard feelings and I hope he feels the same way" I say holding so many emotions back but at this point I have just learned to hold back all my emotions.
"Okay so you aren't mad or anything?" He asks.
"No of course not." I say smiling.
"Okay good, and by the way man you got jacked." He says laughing.
"Yea yea I work out every morning." I say laughing.
"Nice bro meet us down there when your ready." He says leaving.

I get up and take my medicine. I actually have a new pill. It's an antidepressant. My doctor suggested it and I know that's the only thing keeping me sane right now.
I walk down stairs to see all the boys eating breakfast.
"Good morning!" I smile at them.
"Hey Haz!" Niall says running over to me and squeezing me to death.
"Hey Nialler what's up?" I ask trying to breathe.
"I just missed you so so much!!!" He said hugging me.
"I know I missed you to Ni now get off I can breathe." I laugh.
He sits back down.
"Hey Harry nice to have you back." Liam says looking up at me.
"Thank you." I say giggling a bit.
"Hey do we have any avocados?" I ask.
"Yea look in the fruit bowl." Liam says.
I get an avocado and make my toast and tea.
I sit down next to Louis because that's always been my spot.
"What were you doing up at 5 in the morning?" Louis suddenly asks me.
"Why hello to you to Louis. I was going to the gym" I say looking at him unfazed.
"You work out now?" Niall asks.
"I mean I always have I just never did it that much." I say.
Louis looks over at me confused.
"Hey Harry can we talk in the living room?" He asks.
"Yea sure no problem." I say smiling and getting up with him.
We sit down across from each other.
"Why are you acting like nothing happened?" He asks.
"Well I moved on and so did you it's all in the past now right?" I ask smiling.
"I mean yea but I-I hurt you and I'm sorry I wish I could tell you why but I can't." He says looking down.
"Louis it's in the past I'm not mad you have a girlfriend and I want you to be happy I get it, and I've moved on so we can just forget about and move on." I say smiling.
He just nods and brings me in for a hug.
We hug it out and soon we all go to the studio.