The New Addition L.S

Ch.54

Harry

"Okay so I'm gonna start with when I left. I went to my mums for the 4 weeks. When I saw what happened I wasn't mad, I was just hurt. But know I now the truth so I'm not upset anymore. But for the first two weeks I was actually doing really well. But then after I went in social media and saw Louis with her again. And I'm not going to say this is your fault at all Louis, it's 100 percent not your fault or Eleanors she seems like a sweet girl. This is obviously just how I handle things. I started cutting that day again. But I remember from that day on till yesterday of course, there wasn't a day that went by where I didn't cut. But back to at my mums my mom noticed I was upset for those two weeks after and she told me to maybe try another pill before I went back. So I did I took the antidepressants but after a while I became so reliant on it, it stopped  working and it just got worse form there. I stopped eating about 2 months ago. I feel like Kendall was just a distraction, and I feel bad but I did really like her for a while but things went downhill and I don't know. But I'm so so sorry you guys had to see that yesterday, you guys shouldn't have had to deal with that. I'm so sorry." I whisper the end out my head in my hands.

A few minutes later I feel all of them wrap their arms around me in a group hug.
"Haz don't feel bad you weren't in the right mindset we could never hate I'm just glad we were there for you." Liam says.
"Thank you I love you guys"

Louis

We spend the rest of the day watching movies but the boys couldn't stop looking at Harry every time Harry tried eating you can tell it made him feel sick.
"Harry you all right?" I ask him as he tries to eat the popcorn.
"Yea I'm fine just not really hungry" he says grimacing at the bowl.
"Baby you have to eat." I say holding his hand.
"Lou it hurts my stomach though" he says embarrassed.
"Baby let's start off with something small okay?" I ask.
"Yea but can we just do that tomorrow I'm tired?" He pouts.
"Yea baby of course wanna go to bed?" I ask and he nods in response.
"Hey lads were going to bed now so good night" I say standing up with Harry.
"GOODNIGHT!" Nialls yells making everyone wince.

Me and Harry laugh and walk upstairs .
"Can you sleep with me tonight Lou I'm scared." He asks snuggled into my neck.
"Yea baby what are you scared of?" I ask.
"That I'm gonna hurt myself again." He whispers as we walk to his room. Of course it terrifies me, I wish I could always protect him. I never want him to feel that pain again.
"Let's go baby." I say leading him to his bed.

Soon we get settled and tucked into bed, Harry's beautiful the way did curls is laying on my head, while I draw shapes on his soft warm back.

"Lou I have to go to the gym tomorrow." He says.
"No baby not get okay? I need you to be healthy." I say.
"But I am healthy if anything I need to loose some." He whispers the end.
"No you don't baby please just not yet." I plead.
"Okay I guess." He sighs.
"I love you." I say kissing his head.
"You do?" He asks.
"So much baby. More than you can ever imagine."
"I love you too." He says and falls asleep on my chest.