The New Addition L.S

Ch.61

Harry

It doesn't get better.

Not for me anyways it hasn't. After the funeral I stayed in my room again. I refuse to open up to anyone. It's actually been exactly two weeks since I came back here and heard the news. I've only barley have eaten anything, I don't have the energy nor do I need it.
I need to go back to the boys soon.

Right now I am waiting for Braydon to come over.

"Hey" he says opening my door.
"Hi" I whisper back.
"You know Louis wants you to come him I spoke to him the other day for the first time." He says.
"What else did he say?" I ask.
"He said they were having a good time and wish you were there, but I told them you were doing good. Even though I know your not. I didn't tell them how you haven't been eating and you've been self harming." He says making me immediately feel guilty.
"Okay cool" I say in a not caring voice.
"Harry you need to go out there and get better. You need to be with Louis and people that miss you." He says.
"I'll think about it" I say closing my eyes and falling into my pillows.
"Harry seriously look at you, your so skinny and pale, your clothes are getting big on you! And you keep cutting even though you try to tell me something different I know how it works I have always been there for you!" He says angry.
"Fine I'll go." I spit back.
"Harry don't be like this." He says sternly.
"Be like what?! I said I'll go" I yell back.
"Fine" he says getting up and leaving.

I pack up a few more stuff. I didn't bring anything here so all my stuff I brought is still there. So I'll only bring more stuff I need.

I grab my bag and change my clothes into a a sweatshirt, sweats, and sneakers.
I put on my sunglasses cause I don't need to be papped looking like this I have horrible bags under my eyes.
I take my phone and my bag and go down stairs to Braydon talking with my mom.
"Can you bring me to my plane?" I ask him and he nods.
"Can you eat something?" My mum asks.
I just nod and grab a pre-made smoothies from the fridge.
"Let's go" I say opening it.
"By mum I love you text me please if you need anything" I hug her and kiss her cheek.

Me and Braydon get in the car and I put my bottle in the cup holder.
"Harry you have to actually drink it" he says.
"I know do you have a charger in here?" I ask.
"Yea" he says handing me one to plug my phone in.

He starts driving and I drink some of my smoothie.
I take my charging phone and I turn it for on the first time in 2 weeks to see tons and tons of texts and missed messages.
I can't look at the the sympathy texts so I go to my texts with Louis.

Lou: Hi baby thanks for letting me know please keep me updated. Love you.

Lou: hey it's been a few days wanted to make sure you were okay after that call? And we went to the beach got to hold koalas today wish you were here. Love you xx

Lou: hey I know you need time maybe that why you haven't answered but I'll be here when your ready. And all the boys love you so much. Can wait to see you and hold you. Love you.

Lou: Braydon told me you needed time and you weren't ignoring me on purpose. That's good. I actually got you some shirts today from a cute shop here. Love you.

Lou: Braydon told me you were doing really good. I'm glad your handling this well. Spend as much time with your family as you need. Love you with all my heart!

Lou: I know you don't read these cause you haven't gone on your phone, but I miss you and love you.

Lou: heyyyyy Niall omg he feell intto a ta leb and Brok e it was so funny

Lou: hey baby, still missing you can t wait to see your beautiful face. Also we went surfing again today and I'm starting to get the hang of it. Love you.

I read all the texts letting a few years fall but quickly wiping them away.

Me: hey coming back. Love you xx H.

And with that I put my phone away and stared at the road.