The New Addition L.S

Ch.30

Harry

Why me? Why can't they just like me?
I strip down and leave my boxers on taking my razor out.
I bring it up to my healed scars and push it on my skin gliding it across my skins several times.
I sigh in relief, it feels so good.
I watch the blood drip. It looks oddly satisfying watching all he pain just drip away before your eyes.
I do it a few more times until I get dizzy. Which I guess that means I have to stop. Or maybe I don't have to.
No I need to stop I put the razor down and take my boxers off and go in the shower and rinse my arm. After I rinse my arm I shower of course it's hurts like hell getting soap in it but it's hurts more to cut so I'm numb to the pain.
After my shower I dry off and get into my clothes.

Zayn

I'm worried about Harry what happened today really got to him.
"Hey guys we need to talk." I say gathering the boys in the living room while Harry is showering.
"Hey what's up Zayn?" Niall asks.
"It's about Harry I'm worried." I say.
"Yea me too but it will pass the fans need to get used to him. And I'm sure he just needed a minute." Liam says.
But that's not what I'm worried about.
"No guys that's not it." I say.
"Then what is it Zayn?" Lou asks.
"Okay I'm not supposed to tell you guys but um he doesn't take this stuff very well." I say.
"Yea Zayn we know but we can comfort him." Niall says.
"No guys he...he self harms. He hasn't done it in a while not since like 5 weeks ago I'm pretty sure. But I'm scared for him that seemed to really hurt him." I say. And all their faces drop.
"H-He selfharms?" Lou asks tearing up.
"Yea I saw his wrists a few days after we met him but I talked to him about a few days after the Gemma thing and we haven't brought it up but I haven't seen anything. But he's been wearing sweatshirts obviously trying to hide scars from you guys." I say.
"We need to help him." Niall says.
And at that moment Harry walks out if the bathroom in sweats and a sweatshirt and puffy eyes, red cheeks and wet hair.

Harry

I walk out of the bathroom and see them all sitting down staring at me. I walk over to my stuff and put my laundry away.
"Hey Harry can you sit with me?" Lou asks softly.
I look over at the boys and Louis. What's going on?
Did Zayn? No he wouldn't.
"Can't you guys just leave me alone?!" I ask annoyed.
"Haz can you please just sit down?" Lou asks nicely again.
I nod and roll my eyes sitting down next to him in front of the other three boys who are starting at me sympathetically.
"Why are you guys staring like that?!" I yell.
They honestly all look like they are going to cry.
I look over at Zayn who had a guilty look on his face, now I'm very angry.
"Zayn? What the fuck did you do!?" I yell.
I look over at Louis scared.
"Boys can you leave?" Louis asks and the boys walk out to the bunks closing the sliding door.

"Hun can you show me your wrists?" He asks softly.
And at that moment I know I went  pale just drawing more attention.
Louis is looking at me waiting for me to do something.

"W-Why?!" I choke out.
"Love just please show me them?" Louis asks again softly.
"N-No! Stop what are you guys even doing?! What the fuck Zayn I trusted  him!" I yell.
"Love please just let me see something." Louis says.

"There's nothing to show! Why are you doing this?!" I yell and feel hot tears streaming down my face.
Louis gently grabs my arm bring it towards him and I just look at him while we stare into each other eyes.
"No please don't Lou" I plead.

Lou pulls up my sleeve to my forearm revealing all my new cuts and old scars.
I look at Lou and see a tear go down his face.
"Harry..." Lou starts.
I quickly pull my arm away pushing my sleeve down.
"Why?" Lou asks.
"I'm sorry I just can't do this anymore. The hate is so bad." I say.
"Come here." Louis says reaching his arms out.
I move closer to him and he snuggles me in his chest and I immediately start sobbing in his shirt.
"I-I I'm so sorry I j-just can't take it a-anymore it hurts so bad." I sob.
"Shhh it's okay luv." He says rubbing my back.

I stay sobbing and shaking in Louis's tight hold.
"Lou I'm s-so sorry I just c-can't handle it" I sob.
"Shhh baby it's okay I'm right here." He coos.
I stay there for about 10 more minutes sobbing until it turns into small hiccups and I sit up wiping my eyes.