The New Addition L.S

Ch.52

It's been almost 2 months since me and Kendall started dating.
But nothing is really getting better I mean it's getting harder to hide I cut everyday and we are starting the South America tour next week. I only wear long sleeves and I get 4 hours a sleep every night sometimes less and I work out for 3 hours everyday. I look unhealthy.
I mean at first I just wanted to become toned but I don't know what happened.
I look at myself in the mirror and notice how sunken in my eyes are, and hot prominent my cheek bones are, and how you can see more of my bones.
It's not that I'm not eating I'm just not hungry. This happens every time get into this depression I just don't have the energy to eat, it's not like I have an eating disorder. I'm tired.
But I know it's not good it's taking longer to go up and down the stairs.
I workout until I can't feel my legs anymore.
I'll be fine.

I head down stairs to take both my medicines.
"Hey Haz when did you start taking two pills?" Niall asks.
"Since I came back." I say drinking them.
"Oh what's the other one for?" Zayn asks.
"Um I don't know." I say sitting down out of breathe just from that.
"Haz you hungry?" Liam asks.
And I shake my head.
"Harry you have to eat come on!" Louis yells.

Louis

"Harry you have to eat come on!" I yell.
"I'm not hungry" he says rubbing his eyes.
"Oh bullshit Harry! You work out for three hours everyday and only eat when you with your little Kendall! News flash I know were not your girlfriends but you have to fucking eat or you'll die!" I yell.
He looks so sick, pale, and exhausted.
He gets up and walks to the stairs yelling: "isn't that the whole point!"
And our faces go pale. He stops half way up the stairs to catch his breathe.

It's not until he's in his room Zayn says something.
"Li can you hand me those pills?" He asks.
Liam gets up taking the new bottle of pills and hands it Zayn.
He looks up the name.
"Guys..." he says.
"What! What are they Zayn say it?" I say angry.
"Um they are um antidepressants..." he says looking down.
My stomach drops.
Antidepressants?
"I-I oh god" I say pulling my hair.
"They are obviously aren't working I mean he's come too dependent on them I mean he's starving himself." Liam says.
All of a sudden we are interrupted by a loud noise up stairs.

Harry

I don't want to do this anymore I'm tired.
After I go into my room I take my razor and take my sweater off.
I go into the bathroom and push my razor into my pale skin a few times.

Go deeper

I push it the deeper I have ever gone a few times.
Something doesn't feel right. There's too much blood. I start feeling light headed and I stop hearing everything. All I can see is the huge puddle of my blood below me.
Shit I didn't mean to.
Oh god am I dying?
I start feeling the room spin until everything goes black.

SO SORRY FOR THE CLIFFHANGER
ALSO I DIDNT KNOW HOW SHORT THIS WAS:(