Scars and Skies Above (Sky Series 1)

Flight MG-017: Heartbeat

I blew a shaky breath while sitting on a bench inside the airport, waiting for Mason to arrive from his flight. He texted me a while ago after they landed, telling me that he needed to go to their headquarters first and that it was going to be quick. But that was more than half an hour ago.

We just got back from Switzerland yesterday and we decided to visit my OB-GYN today for a consult after I tested positive to all three drugstore pregnancy tests I took.

I silently cried myself to sleep last night while Mason was hugging me, whispering how much he loves me and that everything was going to be all right.

But it's not.

I know it's not because he didn't know why I was crying.

He didn't know how this pregnancy complicated things.

He didn't know.

And I couldn't tell him the reason.

I needed to do this on my own.

Don't get me wrong, I love Mason.

So much.

But bringing another life into this world scared me.

It wasn't just about me and him.

It's about taking care of the small human being growing inside me. Someone who will become its own person someday.

I wasn't ready to become a mother because I didn't know how to be one. I didn't have a role model for that, thanks to my ovum donor who carried me in her womb for nine months but left me alone like an unwanted orphan on a cold night.

Mason promised me he won't leave me, that we're going to do this together. That he will be by my side every step of the way.

But I didn't know how to do this. I was still young. I was still in college. And...

I sighed.

I will have to carry this human inside me for nine months, which means I will have to stop and postpone my dreams. I have to put my dream of becoming a doctor on hold.

I didn't know how to feel. I couldn't even call this embryo as my child yet all because I still couldn't grasp the fact I was pregnant. And that it's a part of me.

My blood, my flesh.

And there was another problem I have to face everyday. This constant threat in my sanity.

Hindi pa alam ng pamilya ko na buntis ako. Paano ako magkakalakas ng loob sabihin sa kanila? Paano kung ma-disappoint sila sa akin? How would they react?

Naglalakad na si Mason palapit sa akin habang hinihila ang maleta niya kasabay ang iba pang flight crew at naroon din si Corbyn. Tumayo na ako para salubungin siya.

He smiled widely when he saw me walking toward him

"Una na ako, Max!" Rinig kong sabi ng isang lalaki na naka-pilot uniform din at nauna nang lumabas ng airport.

Tumakbo agad palapit sa akin si Corbyn at inunahan si Mason nang makita ako. He bear-hugged me at umikot ikot habang buhat ako.

Shit, nahihilo ako. Baka masuka ako rito.

Nakita kong kumunot ang noo ni Mason.

"Wazzup, my favorite girl!" Malokong bati niya sa 'kin at humalik sa pisngi ko, inaasar si Mason. Normal na gawain ni Corbyn 'to pag nagkikita kami kaya sanay na rin ako sa ugali niya.

"Mason, have you meet my girl?" Pangaasar lalo nito at umakbay pa sa 'kin.

Mason sighed deeply and was about to come between me and Corbyn when a flight attendant beside him suddenly held his arm.