Born for this [Kiba Inuzuka Love Story]

23.

Where am I?

is darkness always this cold? 

where is everyone?

Asuma?

Ronin? 

Norio? 

Ino? 

Grandfather?

Kiba?

am I dead?

how am I supposed to help people if I'm dead?

maybe I don't deserve to help people, the Hokage and my Grandfather...he's dead... and it's all my fault. I'm so stupid, I thought I had everything handled just cause I discovered that new chakra source in me, I let myself get distracted and...and because I didn't know it was a distraction, he died. 

I don't deserve to be a Kunoichi...

I'll never master my clans Jutsu or discover the clans Kekkai Genkai...

I'm so sorry Mom and Dad, I wanted to make you guys proud and finish what Mom started...

I'm sorry Asuma, I didn't mean for you to have half your family ripped away from you in one day, it was hard enough when for you when Dad left but now...I'm sorry for the pain I'll cause...

I'm sorry Ronin and Norio, you guys were my best friends and helped me grow into what Grandfather called "a wonderful Kunoichi" 

and now Kiba, Kiba I don't know what to think of you...I always feel safe and protected with you next to me. I admire how you can be so protective other your friends and teammates. You are full of kindness and you care about people, including me. I can't help but think that I like you, I have a feeling of wanting to be around you and to be honest I don't really know what to do. I think I might like you...but it doesn't matter anymore  since I'm gone....I guess, I guess I'm sorry, I'm sorry for not giving you a chance or spending more time with you cause now I really wish I did....

that's a nice smell...what is it? 

I think it's cedar, it's warm and husky, I like it....

I'm tired, so tired...