Moments... (An Ed Sheeran fanfic)

Appointment

Hey! This chapter is quite short and I'm sorry. I think it's semi dramatic towards the end so I thought it would add to the effect if I made it a short chapter...

Louise's POV

"You bought a car!" I gasped as I walked outside.

"Yep." Ed grinned.

"When?" I questioned.

"This morning. My friend owns a car place." Ed explained.

It seemed as though Ed had already gone to the bank and put all the money into his bank account. I couldn't believe Matt had given us so much money as I was curious as to where it came from. But we had no idea where Matt was and we didn't have a contact number for him. The only way we could've found out is if Matt came back, but that didn't sound likely.

I guess we'd never find out.

"Wow, it looks so nice." I gawped at it.

Okay, so I knew absolutely nothing about cars, but I could tell this car was top notch. It was a shiny black colour and looked slick. I had no clue what the name was though.

"Care to take a spin?" He smiled at me.

"To my appointment?" I asked.

"Yeah." He nodded.

"Oh, you don't have to come with me you know." I told him.

"Yeah, I know. But I want to and you have no say in the matter." He said, opening the car door for me.

"Well, I guess that's decided then." I stepped into the car and Ed got in round the other side.

He started the engine and began to drive. The car went zooming down the road and I had to clutch my seat.

"Slow down you mad man." I said.

"Okay, so I'm not good at this driving thing."

"Really? I hadn't noticed." I remarked as we accelerated down.

"It's been a while, okay?" He replied as the car stalled.

We took a sharp turn around the corner and I swear he nearly crashed into another car.

"I'm gonna die." I dramatically announced.

He turned to face me, taking his eyes off the road.

"No you're not, my driving isn't that-"

"CAT!" I screamed and Ed instantly stopped, causing us both to fall forwards a bit and then bounce right back.

The cat continued to stroll defiantly across the road as Ed and I recovered.

"You nearly killed the cat!" I spoke.

"Yeah...well...I didn't so-"

"Pay attention, Edward. Focus on the road." I ordered.

"But," He turned to face me. "I am f-"

"The road, Ed. The road!" I turned his face so he was facing the road.

"Sorry!" He held his hands up in defeat.

"Hands on the steering wheel!" I commanded.

"Calm down, will you? We're not gon-"

"You just went through a red light." I shook my head in disbelief.

"Did I?" He seemed oblivious.

"Oh God, I'm never getting in a car with you again."

"Oh be quiet." He laughed taking his eyes off the road for a second.

I was on edge throughout the whole drive to the hospital. I didn't care what he said, I was not getting back in that car with him.

Unless he let me drive that was.

Once we got there, Dr Ward was already ready for the two of us so we didn't have to wait about in the waiting room.

We walked into her room and it seemed as though Dr Ward looked uncomfortable.

This was bad.

"What's wrong?" I instantly said as Ed and I sat down. "You look worried."

"Well, as you know, we've taken some tests and managed to remove the tumour." She said in simple terms.

"Yeah." I nodded, eager for her to continue.

"Well, I'm afraid that the cancer has already spread..." She revealed.

Oh.

"What does that mean?" Ed asked.

Dr Ward began to speak in very scientific terms which confused the hell out of me.

"I don't understand." I shook my head.

"We can't stop your cancer." She admitted. "We can offer you treatment to slow down the spreading but as a whole, your cancer is...incurable."

"What?" My eyes widened.

"I'm terribly sorry." Dr Ward apologised.

"Wait wait wait wait, I'm...I'm going to die?" I asked, my voice shaky.

"I'm so sorry." Dr Ward told me.

"How long?" I croaked, tears bubbling in my eyes. "How long do I have to live?"

"It's hard to tell. It could be weeks, months, years." She explained. "But if you want treatment, we could possibly slow the process down, but it's not 100% effective."

"No. I don't want treatment." I immediately decided.

If I was going to die, why make it long and painful?

"So what now?" I questioned.

"There's nothing else we can do. We can prescribe you pain killers and, when it's close to your time of death, we can refer you to a hospice if you wish." Dr Ward explained.

"I...I..." I didn't really know what to say. None of this was processing through my head.

I noticed that Ed had been fairly quiet and turned to look at him. His face was drenched in tears and more were leaking out. He tried to wipe them away but more just continued to resurface.

If he didn't stop crying, I was going to cry.

Too late. Tears sprang from my eyes and cascaded down my face.

"I'm sorry, Lou. I can't do this." Ed shook his head and stood up.

"What do you mean?" My voice cracked.

"This, the cancer. I can't..." He shook his head.

"Ed...you promised. You promised me you wouldn't leave me." I sniffled. "Otherwise I would have let you go in New York."

I remembered back to when Ed told me he loved me at the same time I discovered I had cancer. I was going to leave him to spare him the heartache for the both of us. But he refused.

"Don't I mean anything to you?" I sobbed.

"Yes, of course you do. You mean the world to me and I love you so much. But I just...I need to process this all." He cried.

"Ed, I just found out that I'm going to die and I really need you by my side right now." I pleaded. I didn't care if I sounded desperate.

"Lou, I love you but...I just can't right now." He ran out of the room as I stood up and began to chase after him.

"Ed!" I yelled once I got to the door.

He didn't turn back, he kept running down the corridor and out of the surgery. Leaving me alone with fate.

I was going to die.