The Problems of Being Bisexual...at 13

Chapter 5

12/21/14

Sup bitches! Did you miss me? I missed you too!

Wanna know another problem about being bi at 12? People are still confused about themselves? Exciting right!

Not

So the girls are usually to scared to admit if they are. Don't take me wrong, I'm scarred of coming out but if someone asked me I'd tell them the truth, unless they're mean to me the little I allow them to, I don't like them, or if their my parents. The girl also aren't the most attractive by heart or just outside. Like I mean straight up flat wooden plank( minecraft lovers?)

In the summer there was this girl (let's call her Cindy). Cindy was a pretty tomboy who was nice that went to my summer camp. Cindy was a lesbian but there were some problems. Number one Cindy had a criminal record. I'm not judging because I've done the exact same shit as her but I just haven't been caught. Unlike her I only gained enemies but I didn't gain the polices attention. I refuse to get stuck in that shit again and I do not feel like having to get in fight that may be life or death situations again. I had enough of that in fifth grade. And second she was a crack head and I'm not going near that stuff again. I'm serious we caught her in the bathroom on our Hawaiian Falls field trip smoking pot.

There is this one girl I do like though. She goes to my school but she's my friend. She's really adorable.

She has a little chubby figure but still managing to be skinny with flawless tan skin. Dark brown locks of silky curly hair that reaches her mid back and solid light brown eyes with a dark ring of brown around them, though they've darker to that sexy dark brown, but not as dark as mine.

She's a sweet personality and she's all I could want. Plus she's the first person I came out to (hint hint) and she took it the best way anyone could. She hugged me and started to whisper scream "My friend likes pussy and dick! She likes the va-jay-jay and the dingaling!"

But I'm almost positive she doesn't feel the same and I wouldn't want to risk our friend ship or the possibility of her getting bullied for liking a girl. I mean I can handle myself and her but I can't be with her during all of school and if I were to get suspended or expelled she wouldn't have anyone to protect her since everyone's in that every man for himself thing. So I'm torn from what my heart wants and what my brain knows :( .

Then there are the boys. Some of them are actually cute and I can see the supermodel coming through some of them. But a lot of them tease me and get on my nerves. I know, I know, it's because they like you outcaster! I don't give a damn. For example my friend Ricky (I'm still not going to give peoples names).

Ricky is one of the model kids I was talking about. He's in the seventh grade like me but there's a catch. Ricky is 5foot 10inches with that cute messy bed head black hair. He has mid toned brown eyes and is strong as fuck! He's going to be a lady killer when he gets older which I just mean 2 years from now when we hit high school.

Well apparently Ricky like most of the other boys secretly likes me. I mean it's kind of obvious when you do the whole I accidentally touched you the same way I do everyday thing on your body. It doesn't really bother me though so whatever I don't really say anything, unless I get groped then someone's getting a black eye, I don't care if you're a dude you don't disrespect people.

Back to the point Ricky found a creative way to tease me. So we have these shelves in Spanish where we put our binders. Me being the short 5foot 3 and a half inched person I am (yes the half matters) I can't reach the second shelf meaning I certainly can't get to the third top shelf. So the smart ass, you guessed it, puts my fucking binder on the top shelve every mother fucking damn shitty ass day. Sorry for ruining some of your innocent ears- I mean eyes, right?

So in order for me to reach it I have to get on a chair or do that cliché almost about to fall move one the counters beneath it. But the catch is that the school uniform has it where you wear skirts (which I hate) or pants. And me being the lucky genetic coded person I am I got thunder thighs that make the pants even tighter one my ass than the pant already were.

So when I do try to get it my ass is on full display for all the boys to see! Yah no, I'm not like that I rather not show my stuff, I already have boobs getting in the way of that. But do you know what the icing on the cake is to all of this? I hear fucking high fives when I get my binder! Also he has inspired the other boys to mess with me. Thank you so much Ricky.

I mean come on Ricky! You and the other guys already chase me around during gym I think that should be enough of a show, but no I guess you guys have to be greedy.

But he's not that bad in the end though because he's the first guy to notice if something is wrong with me and he's a little protective... even though he knows I can handle myself.

So things just got on another level of confusing. You guys know you could give me advice and help a girl out right?

And while you're at it you can vote, comment, and get others to do that too!

~outcaster