Falling for my rival

Chapter thirty five

I am currently walking to the class I've been dreading but I grab Colby's hand and drag him in a class room I close the door "why the hell are you here" I say and glare at him he looks at me "I got this covered I'm close on getting to where I want him Colby but you being here" I say he rolls his eyes "it's risky I know but Tessa we've given you enough time to do what you planned on doing but instead your doing something else like killing your father Tessa come on that's not you he's trying to get in your head" he says I roll my eyes "one you have no idea what I'm doing two I need help on the inside that's exactly what I did I trust that group of people Colby if you trusted me this would of worked but I guess now I gotta figure out what to do before he kills me after he figures out that you are still alive" I say shakes his head "don't Tessa just don't ever since you broke up with me all I've been wanting to do was get you back that's all I've wanted but now all I want is to kill everyone in the mafia for taking you" he says I look at him "I'm sorry I broke up with you but I did it so you wouldn't get hurt again because of me everyone's blood is always on my hands I half to bare it so others don't half too that's how much I care that's how much you and the others mean to me so if you go through with killing them especially the people that are helping you might as well kill me too" I say I start to leave "Tessa" he says I stop before I touch the door knob "goodbye Colby" I say and leave I go to the class I stop before I enter I lean against the wall "god what am I doing" I mumble get the job done a voice says what the hell kill him the voice says I shake my head and go into the class I sit down "you ok" Jordan says I look at him "does it look like it" I say he looks at me "what happened" he says I look away "it doesn't matter because now we are going to get this done" I say and look at him he looks at me with this look I look away he doesn't say anything I look up front and see him walk in he's right there end it now the voice says again I shake my head no go away I know you want to he betrayed you he never came home he started a new life with someone else started a new family shut up i start to shake my leg my breathing starts to get heavy I get up and run out "get out of my head" I say I cover the sides of my head just give in you want revenge so get it kill your father then his blood will be on your hands too just like your mothers, Colby's, Jordan's "shut up" I say I feel arms on my shoulders "Tessa listen to my voice ignore it whatever it's saying it's not true" Jordan says I shake my head "everyone dies because of me everyone's blood is on my hands my mothers, Colby's, Kats, my father, and you" I say and look at him "no they aren't that's just what it wants you to think Tessa please" he says my breathing starts to slow down "Jordan" I say he nods "its me" he says I hug him tight "I'm here" he says and hugs me back but tighter "how did you know it was the voices" I say "I saw you start to shake your breathing started to go faster then you ran out so I knew something was up" he says I don't say anything "how long have you been hearing the voices" he says and pulls away a little "it happens here and there but today it was worse it got way worse it's like it was a darker version of me when I looked at my father it kept telling me to do it right then and there then it started telling me things" I say he nods "I know" he says and pulls me back in and we stay like that for awhile until the last bell rings we pull away "I'm going to go do something meet me out at the car" I say he looks at me "you sure" he says I nod "ya I'll be fine" I say he nods "ok I'll be right at the car" he says I nod "ok" I say I start to walk off to the classroom I half to do this he betrayed me I stop before I knock "you got this" I say I knock and go in "hey I had a question about the homework" I say as I go in he looks at me "mrs.Stuart what's your question" He says I go in "why didn't you come home" I say and lean my hands against his desk he looks at me "I have no idea what your talking about" he says I roll my eyes "dad answer the question" I say he looks at me "Tessa honey I had too" he says I roll my eyes and go lean against one of the desk "you could of called or at least stopped by before you started your new life" I say he shakes his head "I couldn't I had to run you know what they would of done" he says I scoff "I know that's why John sent me and my friends to kill you" I say he looks at me confused "Tessa no" he says and comes over and leans against the desk "it was a plan I pretend to kill Colby John believed it until well Colby ruined it so I might be dead before the night is over I just wanted to say goodbye" I say and shrug my shoulders he shakes his head "You want to kill John and end it there's no ending it" he says and shakes his head "no there is me dead" I say he looks at me "no your not killing yourself" he says and shakes his head "I'm not going to do it John is" I say he brings me into a hug I grab my knife out of my pocket I take a deep breathe "I love you so much" he says I lean my head in his shoulder "I love you too" I say and I stab him "I'm sorry dad but you betrayed me you didn't even say goodbye" I say I pull the knife out "goodbye dad" I say he closes his eyes and his breathing stops he falls I close my eyes then opens them I drop the knife and look down "dad" I say I bend down and start CPR "come on" I say I start tear up "damn it" I say I check for a pulse he's gone "no what did I do"