All Because Of Him

sixteen.

  Everything that Aiden had said to me was all right. I did make a terrible mistake. Hearing Aiden say we're done made me feel nothing but completely broken inside. The boy who I have loved for years, my best friend, can't even bear to look at me. And when he does, he doesn't even recognize the person he fell in love with. The pain I am feeling is something I could have lived without, but I have no one to blame but myself.

"Well that was a bit harsh, don't you think?" I hear behind me.

Well, not no one. I think to myself.

 I can feel myself boiling with anger as I turn around and see Mason.

"You did this." I say, and put my hands against Mason's chest and push him forcefully.

"What the fuck?" He shouts, "How exactly is this my fault?"

"I know you wrote that card." I shouted at him. "You purposely sabotaged me and Aiden's relationship! You know for someone who lives by one night stands you sure don't know how to let one go!" Mason laughs at my words.

"Wait, so you're telling me Aiden has been back two days and you guys haven't fucked?" He laughs in amusement, and for some reason I feel slightly embarrassed.

"Of course you think this is a joke, you think everything is a joke!"

"I never wrote that card." He says, "I was just playing the game. And maybe a part of me was just trying to make you seem like you're not just some boring prude." I scoff in disgust.

 I can see the amusement in his eyes. My pain is amusing to him. I know he never cared about me and Aiden's relationship, but I thought he would at least have my back in this.

"You liar! How stupid do you think I am? You wrote the card, and ruined me and Aiden's relationship because you ruin everything!" I shout, and push him against his chest again. I can see his jaw tense up at my words but I don't care.

"You ruined it! No wonder your own mother shipped you back here!"

Right when the words leave my mouth, I am filled with even more regret. I know how low it was for me to bring Mason's mother into this. Mason's eyes widen and his face stiffens at my words.

"Mason I-" I begin to apologize but Mason interrupts.

"I ruin everything?" He begins, stepping closer to me,  Let's face it, you sit around at parties with nothing to contribute, and you act like you're so better than everyone else. When the truth is you're the fucking joke. You were so quick to open your legs up for me, and you stand here and act like your nothing other than easy." 

 Before I know what I'm doing, my hands collide with Masons cheek as I am filled with nothing but rage.

"What the fuck is going on out here?" I hear Jessica shout as she steps in-between the two of us. Mason's hand brushes against his cheek and his lips curve into a smile.

I turn around and begin to walk towards the car, ignoring Jessica's words.

"Why did Aiden just kick me out of his house?" She asks, as she follows me to the car. Once I unlock the door and step inside, I wait a moment until Jessica gets in the car and then I lock the doors. Mason attempts to open the passenger door, but it doesn't budge. He looks at me and laughs.

"You got to be fucking kidding me. You know how long it's going to take me to walk back?" He shouts. Jessica looks at the both of us, confused at what's going on. I roll down Jessica's window and buckle my seat belt.

"So then walk fast." I say in a harsh tone, and roll up the window. 

Jessica remains quiet as I pull out of the parking spot, and start to drive. He couldn't really expect me to give him a ride after what he's done? He has the fucking nerve. 

A few minutes pass until Jessica decides to say something.

"So are you going to tell me what happened?"

"What happened is Mason ruined everything. He wrote that fucking card and now Aiden knows we slept together, and he ended things." I could feel a few tears fall from my cheeks and I quickly wiped them away.

"Elle, it's not Mason's fault-" I laugh at her words. Of course she would stand up for him. He is her cousin after all.

"You know, bringing him to the party was your idea. Playing that stupid ass game was your idea, and look how that turned out." I shout. I know I shouldn't be taking my anger out on her but all of this is true, if she never did any of that I wouldn't be in this mess right now.

"Oh so it's my fault? You were the one who lied to Aiden's face when he asked you if you had been with anyone else. And you were the one who continued to lie after the fact. You keep saying that fucking Mason meant nothing, but did it? Because you sure know how to constantly bring up that night."

"Oh wow," I began, "You know, someone like you really shouldn't be judging someone like me." I said. I can see Jessica's shocked reaction to my harsh words.

"And what is someone like me?" She asks. I don't say anything because I know if I do, it could potentially end our friendship. Even though Jessica has slept with her fair share of guys, I would never want to hold it against her.

"Stop the car." She says.

"I can't stop the car, I'm on the road."

"I said, stop the fucking car." Jessica says, and leans in and grabs the steering wheel, turning the wheel to the right, and we drive off the road. I hear cars honk at us as they drive by.

"What the fuck is wrong with you!" I shout. I can't believe Jessica just grabbed the wheel like that. She opens her door and gets out of the car.

"What are you doing?" I ask.

"Someone like you shouldn't be seen with someone like me, right?" She says and slams the door.

"Jess, get back in the car!" I call out, as I roll down the window.

"Fuck you, Elle!" Jessica shouts back, with her middle finger in the air and begins to walk down the road. I hit the car wheel in frustration and drove off. If she wants to walk home, fine, I'll let her.

Once I make my way home, and open the front door I see Amy sitting in the living room watching t.v. with blankets wrapped all around her. She pauses her show as I walk in.

"How was Aiden's?" She asks me. I stand there, by the door, not sure how to describe the events of today. 

Aiden found out I slept with Mason and our relationship is over, Mason slut shamed me for my poor life decisions, and Jessica basically almost killed us just so she could get out of the car with me.

"Elle?" Amy asks again. The amount of energy I have is very little, and I know if I were to tell Amy I'd have to start from the beginning, and I don't have it in me.

"It was fine," I replied. I can tell she knows something is up. "I'm going to bed, I'm tired." I say, and begin walking past her.

"Okay, well, goodnight." She says.

When I get to my room, I close the door behind me and lean my back against the door.

What the hell happened today?