how to make an alpha male fall in love? (How-To Series #2)

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Chapter 16: The Past of Peony Krystal Gasson

JARED'S POV

The next few days have been like the usual. I still get to continue to watch series I want to finish in time. I still get to shower at least every other day. And lastly, I get to provide my body with the daily supply of its blood named "pink milk."

But one thing for sure is unusual, Ian not being here.

I am wondering where he has been. Is he that busy that he can't drop by? Or is he already regretting that I was his friend?

It may be neither of those two options, but I just...

I miss his presence.

His care.

His accent.

His smile.

I miss him.

"What's wrong?" Is the first question I heard that day. I was just sitting by the window. A table in front of me where I lay my elbows to support my head when I lay it on my palm.

Tumingin ako sa kung sinong nagtanong. Si Carren pala.

"W-wala." Nauutal ko pang pagtanggi.

"Wala pero kita ko sa mga mata mo na meron."

"Edi sana hindi mo na ako tinanong, 'di ba?" Pambabara ko sa kaniya.

That made her froze. But then she recovered after a little while. "Concerned lang naman ako."

"Para saan?!" That's when I think this is not going anywhere. I have been speaking to her rudely and I don't have the reasons to be. She's speaking to me nicely. Being concerned and being a good friend.

But why am I raising my voice?

For that second time around, she was gagged again by my sudden raise of voice.

Sobrang puno ng utak ko. And I am so confused. I have no idea of why this is happening. Of why I am feeling this way.

It hurts to know that I can't remember anything about my past. That's I am taking too much time thinking. Trying to connect between the dots.

"Jared, ano pang silbi ng pagiging magkaibigan natin? Sige, huwag na nating sabihing magkaibigan. But you shouldn't push people away. Especially people who care for you."

Nang sinabi niya 'yon, napakurap na lang ako. "Iba ka talaga, friend. Englishera ka na."

Carren gave me a fuck-you look and I cannot contain myself because I want to laugh my ass off but I am feeling empty inside.

"What is it? Ano 'yung bumabagabag sa'yo?"

"Bumabagabag talaga? Ang lala naman no'n. Para naman akong pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa."

"Exactly." And now she has that proud expression on her like she felt she won the argument because my stupid mouth just admitted the feelings I want to conceal.

"May aaminin ako."

"Buntis ka?" Gulat na gulat niyang tanong. Napatakip pa siya ng bibig.

Agad kong pinalo ang ulo niya sa inis. "Gaga! Paano ako mabubuntis e lalaki ako?"

"Lalaki ka?!" Then she repeated the same reaction covering her mouth in surprise.

Pero ngayon, hindi na ako pumatol sa joke niya. Naging tahimik na ako. Pinakiramdaman kung kelan ko ba dapat itong itanong. Because not every time is the perfect time.