how to make an alpha male fall in love? (How-To Series #2)

9

Carren Rodriguez ⬆️

Chapter 9: A Friend visits.

"I feel bad for you."

That's the only thing I can say right now. I was out of words and my whole system is in full shock.

We are settled on a bench that is impossible for two persons to fit in. So the space between us is almost non-existent.

I still couldn't process the moment my eyes landed on his eyes... t-they are beautiful. But one of eyes is... I guess... going blind?

Napabuntong-hininga siya. Dahil ba sa sinabi ko?

He squinted his eyes looking up at the sky. He blinked several times. At saka ko lang narealize na sinusubukan niyang pigilan ang luha niya.

Agad kong iniwas ang tingin sa kaniya. I gave him some personal space at the very least as to spare him from further embarassment.

"I hate your eyes." Bigla na lang niyang nasabi.

Nabigla ako. Hindi ko muli alam ang isasagot.

"I hate people's eyes." Bago pa ako makasagot ay nagpatuloy pa nga siya, "I hate how they look at me. It's either they look at me with pity or curiosity."

I cleared my throat. "Sa tingin ko, wala namang masama roon e."

"It's better if they don't care at all." Sabat niya, hindi pa ako pinatapos.

"Ano bang masama kung gusto nilang mag-care sa'yo? Bakit mo ba sila tinutulak palayo?"

He looked at me. He's an inch away but I feel like we are so afar from each other. I felt so uncomfortable under those gazes.

Hindi ako makatingin sa kaniya ng diretso. Iniiwas ko ang aking tingin.

Tumagal iyon ng ilang segundo hanggang sa maging minuto. Hanggang sa nagsalita ulit siya, "Because they can't look at me in the eye."

Natigalgalan ako sa sinabi niya. Para akong sinibat sa puso at pinanlakihan ng mata dahil sapul na sapul ako.

"And the most painful part of it is when they finally look at me, they look at me with disgust. The moment they did, I felt like no matter how talented I am, no matter how friendly I can be, if I don't look just like everybody else, I will end up..." then finally I gathered all the courage to look at his eyes... to look into him.... "alone."

My eyes wavered to the last word that escaped his lips.

He was very manly and his shoulders are broad. He is wearing a denim jacket over the hospital gown which makes him more handsome. He also reminds me of someone. I'm not just sure who. If you'll look at him without really looking into his posture and way of talking, you'll be deceived that he is one strong and independent man.

But all I see is fragility and weakness. Something that his manliness can't conceal.

Natagpuan ko na lang ang braso ko na nakapatong na sa kaniyang likod. Tinapik-tapik ko ang balikat niya.

And while we are watching the clouds moving along the direction of the wind, I said, "I heard someone says that whenever we think, therefore, we are."