Me & You: Between Life And Death (COMPLETE)

Chapter 34

I knocked on the door. When she opened it I know that she just came from being teary. I looked at her in a very frightful way while my face watered with tears.

Bakit ganun, Betryle? How am I supposed to love you now if I know that one day you'll abandon me anyway? Maybe not now. But time will come. You will gain back all of your lost memories. You will remember him.

I waddled while closing the door. I could feel the dangerous anger inside of me. I hate to feel this insecurity within. I’ve never been like this before.

Lumapit siya at akmang aalalayan ako but I drove her hand away. Ayokong hawakan niya ako ngayon baka sa kanya ko mabaling ang lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Ayoko siyang saktan.

“Why are you drunk?” galit na tanong niya sa akin but I remained silent. I found myself crying but refused to sob. 

I jumped on the bed. Rested myself comfortably. She sat down beside me. I can’t look straight in her eyes because I don’t know if I can take off my eyes of her. Sakali mang tignan kong muli ang mga iyon.

I took a deep sigh as I vigorously closed my eyes. I heard her little sobs when she unbuttoned my polo na basang-basa at amoy alak.

She lifted me up para mapalitan ang damit ko. Anger, pain, dismay, and envy growing inside me.

I love her. So much. I can't afford to lose her. I can't stand that someone will abandon me again. I can't.

When I reached my boiling point. I pushed Betryle down on the bed. I moved above her. I held her wrist. Locked it using my hand. I'm strong enough to handle her force against me. I landed my lips into hers. Claiming it like my own territory. But she resisted. Convincing me to stop.

“Adriel, nasasaktan ako.”

I aggressively kissed her even more. She disagreed and not even responding to it. She tried to escape from my anger but I continuously kissed her down to her neck.

“Adriel…” she hissed.

Call me insane, if you think I am. Call me a coward, if I looked like. I don't care. This is my way of escape from being caught in misery and pain. I don't know but maybe if I let her see what I'm capable of doing. She'll open her eyes. She'll see it herself that I'm not good for her. I'm just a vulgar person she met in a tragic event. I rather end this now than to end it in a more difficult one.

“Adriel, stop!” She shouted. It seems like a loud echo of cymbals trembling in my ears. A clangor in a battle. She burst in crying when I stopped. I stared at her still shocked. My lips parted when I saw fear inflamed her eyes. What have I done?

She moved away from me and lounge herself on the headboard of the bed. Hugged her knees while crying.

Nakatulala pa rin ako habang patuloy sa pagpatak ang mga luha sa aking mata. Hindi ako makapaniwala na nagawa ko ang mga bagay na iyon sa kanya.

I sidled over to her position and held her shoulder as I cried, “I’m sorry, Betryle...”

I toppled my knees at yumuko sa tuhod niya. Umiyak nang umiyak. I can't imagine that I did such thing to her. A tortuous treatment. I'm such a lunatic to think that it was the way of my escape. To hurt her? Damn. I am so selfish to thumped myself forcibly into her even if she's not at fault.

I hate myself. My enemy. I let my anger invaded my soul. I let it eclipsed her love. The love that sees my worst but choose to love me even more...

I cried harder when I felt her embrace. Embrace that I never expected. Embrace that I don't want to resist. Embrace that I'd want around me until the end of time. She held my face and caressed it with her hands.