Letters To Kyle

Chapter 42

A/n: Warning there is smut in this chapter. I will put a warning when it happens. Also fuck you Stan!

Kyle's POV

After we all decided on what to do everyone, but Cartman left. Cartman was still on my bed, and he looked deep in thought. Did I hurt him that bad that night? I looked down at my hands. Am I a bad person? Do I... Do I lo-

"Kyle." Cartman waved his hand infront of my face. "You alright?"

"Cartman I'm sorry!" I blurted out. He looked at me in confusion. "I'm sorry for everything I done! I didn't take your feelings into consideration, and all I did was think for myself!"

He blinked, and then blinked again. He had a face of realization. He smiled a little and hugged me. I reluctantly hugged back. He was warm, and smelled like apples. "Kyle, you don't have to be sorry. If anything I should. All I have been doing was being selfish. I wanted you all to myself, and didn't realize that maybe just maybe you actually like someone else." He petted my hair. "I'll always love you."

Love? He loves me? I felt my chest beat faster and faster. Was I having a heart attack? Oh god I'm to young to die! "No matter what happens I'll be by your side. Even if you start dating someone else I'll be here when you two part." I felt him pull away a little before he kissed my forehead.

Why does it feel like he's breaking up with me? "Cartman... What if we did start dating?" I felt my cheeks burn.

"Kyle I would love that, but..." He trailed off. "But I don't think you are ready to date anyone at the moment. I think you need to sort your feelings out. Do you actually sincerely like someone or do you like someone just because they are showing you love?"

He kept hugging me. "Can... Can I have one more kiss?" He froze up. "S-sorry I ju-" I was cut off by his lips lightly landing on my own. My cheeks were still burning and I kissed back. He pulled away. "Th-thanks..." I looked away from him and I heard him chuckle.

"Again I'm here for you even if you don't date me, but remember this. If someone hurts you or breaks your heart I will beat the fucking crap out of them." It was scary hearing him say that considering the bright smile he was giving me.

Date someone else huh?

Stan's POV

It was dark when I got home. Since New Year's Pete has been staying at Henrietta's house. He said something about they needed to work on some project they forgot about. To be completely honest I didn't want him to leave. I walked into my house and sat on the couch deep in thought.

I touched my lips lightly with my fingers remembering when Pete kissed me that night. His lips were soft... And tasted like cherries. I felt my cheeks heat up, but then it was replaced with guilt.

Even though Pete and I are not together it felt like I cheated on him.

I let out a groan, and noticed a pack of beer. I stared at it... I remembered last time... Fuck it. I grabbed a beer and downed it. Idiotic move. I feel like I'm turning into my father.

About half an hour later I was finishing my fourth... I should stop. I felt the tears swell up. I grabbed my phone and scrolled threw it. After I found the contact I was looking for I sent a quick message.

Me: I'm sorry fpr wjat I did, Pete. You have no idea what yrt, but you will soom.

I sat up and instantly regretted it. My head hurts a lot. I stumbled out of my house leaving my phone on the coffee table. He wanted to talk... I'll talk. H-his house is just a few streets away. I stumbled to his house before I knocked on it.