Secret Love

Chapter 18

⚠️Warning: Sex references and possible triggers⚠️

Maddie's POV

Nicole brings me downstairs and sits me down on the sofa. I see Jordan and Harry out of the corner of my eye. I have no idea what must be going through their heads.

"Is it ok if I just go to the kitchen for a second. Jordan will stay with you in the mean time" Nicole said and I nodded my head.

Jordan sits on the other end of the sofa as Nicole and Harry walk out of the room. Jordan goes to shuffle closer to me but I'm still really jumpy so he stop halfway through.

"Sorry, I'm just a little jumpy" I say to him. What was he thinking? Is he mad at me?

"It okay, I understand."

We sit in silence for a minute, neither of us knowing what to say to each other.

"Are you mad at me?" I asked him. He looks at me surprised that I had just said that.

"Why would I be mad at you? Yeah, you had sex with some else but it wasn't consensual. If you cheated then I would've mad and you would know that I was mad but why would I be mad at you? You were attacked" he realised he was rambling and stopped. "This is my fault. I should have been here. If I was here I would have stopped it" he says. I looked up at him and he was crying.

"Jordan don't. This is not your fault. Please don't blame yourself, please don't cry" I pleaded with him.

"Do you know who it was?" He asked my after a moment of silence.

"Yeah, um. Year 10, I had a boyfriend who abused me. It was him" I said as I watched turn angry. I could tell that he remembered him. At that time, I was 15. I only had friends who were boys, one of them being Jordan. I didn't see my friends as much because I was worried that if I didn't do as he said, he would hurt me even more so I was basically he puppet.

"I remember him" he said as he tried to stay calm but he looked like steam was about to come out of his ears and nose." Ryan right?"
I nodded.

"Wait is that where you got all of those scares from. You always told me that they were accidents from like bushes and stuff." I couldn't look him in the face.

"Does Harry know about this?"

"Oh god no. And please don't tell him either. He will get more mad than he was when he found out about us"

"Ok, I promise not to tell" he said. It was quiet again. Probably for too long but we didn't know what to say.

"I can't go back into that room" I said trying to find another topic of conversation that wouldn't be awkward. It didn't work. I kept thinking about that stupid tape. Should I tell him? I probably should, right?

"I have to tell you something, well show you something. But it's in my room and I can't go back there." I said to him and he nodded. "Could you get my laptop and make sure there is a CD in there."

"Yeah, of course. HARRY" moments later Harry walks in a sits were Jordan was sitting. "I'll be back in a second, I just need you to sit with her for a minute" and he runs upstairs.

Jordan's POV

I go into her room and I hate being in there already. I see her laptop and go and get it from her desk. There was a piece of paper next to it. I didn't have time to read it and I saw my name so I put it in my pocket and grab her laptop.

I go back downstairs with her laptop and go back into the front room. As I enter, Harry gets up to leave. I sit down on the sofa and Maddie shuffles closer to me.

"Now, I'm about to show you something that stays between us and only us. Also you might want to turn the volume down.... and mute it" she said and I did as she requested. I pressed play and watch three seconds of it before realising was. I slammed the laptop shut and looked at her. "That came in an envelope with a note as well."

"Yeah, I saw the note and I was going to ask you about it" I said and pulled the note out and read it. "Holy shit" I didn't know what to do.

"What are we going to do?" She asked me.

"I don't know. You're right, we can't show anyone the tape. We need to destroy it"

"There are other copies so even if we destroy this copy, it doesn't solve all our problems" she was right.

"Maybe we should watch it all" I suggest.

"What are you mad?" She asked me but there was logic to my madness.

"If we watch it we might be able to figure out when it was" I told. I have my reasons. She looked at me for a few seconds before barely agreeing.

We sit on the floor with our backs to the TV so if anyone walked in, they wouldn't see the computer screen. We watched a bit and it was so weird.

Harry saw our faces when he walked in. "What are you watching?" I shut the laptop quickly and looked at him.

"Nothing" we both said. He looked at us really suspiciously.

"Ok, we were watching something but trust me, you don't want to see it. I don't want to see it" Maddie says and I nod in agreement.

"I want to know what you were watching now" Harry says and sit on the sofa staring at us. I looked at Maddie and she was looking at me. We whisper to each other for a minute we debating whether to tell him or not.

"I'm not telling him though, you have to tell him" she says and stands up.

"Someone recorded us........" having sex I said I'm my head "and is threatening to leak it on the internet" I can't believe I just said that. Especially to my girlfriend's brother. "Got any ideas of what we can do?"

He just sat there stunned for a few seconds.
"Wait, what?"

"Apparently, we accidentally made a...." Maddie start to say when she was cut off by Harry.

"Yeah, I know what you did, I am just" he stuttered before opening and closing his mouth a few times. "Shit"