Authors note- i wanted to say that I'm not trying to glorify anxiety in any way i have anxiety myself and this is based off some of my personal experiences
This morning I woke up and felt anxious almost immediately, I knew that it was going to be one of those days and I wasn't looking forward to it. Despite how I was feeling I got up and tried to make the most of the day in hopes that my anxiety would get better. I went downstairs to make breakfast for me and my boyfriend as well as clean up from the day before.
I was too busy making pancakes to notice Daniel come downstairs it wasn't until I felt someone put their arms around me which made me jump and turn around before I stopped freaking out. Daniel looked concerned about my reaction but he pulled me close to him anyway.
Daniel: omg y/n you're heart is beating so fast did I really scare you that bad
You: no you just made me jump I'm just having a bad anxiety day
Daniel: aww baby I'm sorry let me know if you start to get really anxious
You: I will baby
He picked me up and sat me on the counter while he continued to make the pancakes. He kept his hand on my thigh the whole time which was impressive seeing as he was flipping pancakes. We ate our breakfast then sat together thinking about what to do for the day, Daniel asks if I was going to be ok to go to the beach and of course I said yes because the ocean normally calmed me down. We both went and got ready and I put on a light blue bikini with cut outs on the sides of the top which i covered with a long black dress with flowers on and a halter neck and a slit up to mid thigh.
When I was ready I got some towels and other beach stuff together while I waited for Daniel who came downstairs just as I finished. He came over and took the beach bag from me before grabbing my hand so that we could walk to the beach. We decided to walk today because the beach isn't actually too far from our place and it was a nice day out.
The walk was nice and peaceful because there wasn't too many people on the streets. I was so glad that there wasn't many people because I don't know if I could cope with being around tons of people. I soon realised that I was going to have to cope because the beach was packed with people to the point where there was barely any space for me and Daniel to put our stuff.
Eventually we found space and put our towels down so that we could lay out in the sun. We both laid out to tan for a while before we decided to go in the water and swim for a bit. I was trying my best to forget about how many people were around but it was really hard especially when we were swimming seeing as there was a lot of people floating about and getting in our way. At one point it got too much so I decided to go for a walk along the path by the beach to calm down.
Daniel knew where I was so he didn't worry about me as I just strolled along the path trying to calm myself down and gather my thoughts so that I could reign them in again. I didn't walk for too long only about 15 minutes but it was good enough to calm me down at least for a little bit. When I got back to the beach Daniel was back with out stuff checking his phone so I sat with him and he pulled me close and planted a kiss on my cheek. He made sure I was ok which I said I was but he knew what I really meant. We laid in the sun for a few more hours tanning and I read a book that I bought with me.
At about mid afternoon me and Daniel decided to leave the beach and start our walk back home so that we could just unwind fo the night and I could finally relax more. We collected all of our stuff and I out my dress back on, Daniel grabbed my hand and we started our walk back.
There was still a lot of people around but Daniel made sure that we avoided large groups so that we didn't get caught up, we also tried our best to discuss ourselves so that no one recognised daniel then surrounded us. We tried our best but eventually someone recognised Daniel and came over to the both of us, she asked for a picture which Daniel agreed to in hopes that would mean it was over. Sadly that wasn't what it meant the girl must have told some other people and before I knew it there was a whole swarm of people around me and Daniel, it seemed like there was no way out, no escape.
