I'm about to go to my boyfriend Daniel's house, he invited me over so we could watch a movie together. He always asks me to come over to so that we can just chill together and cuddle, honestly thats mostly what we do when we're together other than the odd date night.
When I got to Daniel's place I knocked on the door but he didn't answer so I just assumed he was in the bathroom and he always just lets me come in so I did. When I walked in I shouted to let Daniel know that I was here and he still didn't respond, I started to panic that something was wrong so I ran round the house trying to find him. Eventually I did hear him talking on the phone to one of his friends, I was going to go straight in when I heard what he was saying.
Daniel: bro she's so annoying, she just won't leave me alone and she always wants to cuddle its so annoying. She's just to clingy
Hearing what he said made me want to cry, I wanted to turn away and stop listening but I couldn't because I needed to know how he really felt.
Daniel: I know I could talk to her but she's not going to listen so I might just break up with her if it doesn't stop
Once I heard that I knew that I had to go back to my car before I saw him because there was tears streaming down my face. When I got to the car I started sobbing more, it was so upsetting to know that was how he really felt. I had always thought he loved cuddling with me because he was always up for it and he even asked me to cuddle sometimes. It made me so sad that he did't feel like he could talk to me about it because I could just give him he reason why I love to be with him so much.
My last boyfriend was never around and when he was he was either with his friends or over the other side of the room not wanting to pay any attention to me. We never had date night or night just chilling on the sofa cuddling together which is why I love to do that with Daniel. My last boyfriend never treated me right and I thought Daniel would be better but clearly I was wrong because he was willing to lie to me and just break up with me without talking about our problems.
While I was sat in my car Daniel text asking where I was so I had to tell him that I was almost there. I gave myself a few more minutes to get the mascara off my face and to wait for my eyes to be less red and puffy. When I thought that I looked less like I had been crying I wen back to the house and knocked on the door again. This time he answered the door and pulled me into a hug, of course I hugged him back but I was more resistant than usual.
We watched movies sat on the sofa together, I sat at the other end of the sofa from Daniel because I was too scared that he was going to break up with me if I got any closer. After getting halfway through the second film Daniel patted the space next to him suggesting I should move up.
Daniel: come here baby, why are you sat all the way over there?
You: oh um I don't know I just didn't think
Daniel: well come here
I moved up and sat next to him, he put his arm around my waist and pulled me on top of him where he cuddled me. Normally I would smile and be happy when we were doing this but today I couldn't help but be more reserved to try and not seem too clingy.
Later in the evening when I went to leave to go back home Daniel didn't want me to leave, he asked me to stay the night but I didn't want to so I told him that he had to be up early in the morning so I couldn't. I felt really bad for lying to him but I knew that I couldn't spend anymore time with him because I was bound to annoy him somehow.
On my way home I decided that I was going to spend less time with Daniel, I was still going to see him every now and again but instead of hanging out with Daniel I was going to spend more time with my friends or doing work. The only time I would see Daniel more than once in a week was if he was with the other boys because then I could spend time with them.
