Pieces of Pastiche

Kabanata 19

"Scalpel."

Sinimulan na namin ang sugery ni Nuwagi. Gulat na gulat ako nung malaman kong si Nuwagi pala ang ooperahan namin. I saw the scans and I saw how big the tumor was. I'm not that confident with what we are preparing now but this is what his main surgeon has decided to do and I have to trust him.

I helped him while suctioning the blood. Kitang kita ko kung gaano siya kafocus. Nakapenetrate na kami sa muscle at nasa vertebra na kami.

I stomped my feet for a while. Inikot ikot ko rin ang ulo ko dahil nangangalay na. We're here for six hours already and it's nine in the evening.

"You want to rest first?" narinig kong tanong ni Archer. I smiled at him and shrugged.

"No, I'll stay." Wika ko. Tumikhim si Sandro at may kung anong binulong.

"Mapapasana all ka na lang talaga. Ako rin pagod na yata."

I was confused when Archer chuckled. Gusto kong magtanong pero pinigilan ko na lang ang sarili ko.

"Are you the Anesthesiologist tomorrow with Dr. Peige and Dr. Wildrige, Dr. Llanes?" tanong ni Archer. May sinusulat pa si Sandro sa monitoring sheet niya bago nilingon si Archer.

"Hindi ako. Baka si Dr. Paez. May repolyo kami ni Lorenz bukas eh. Sabay." Sandro answered. Napatango ako, easy surgery for Lorenz.

Kitang kita ko ang pag tigil ni Archer sa pagliligate at nilingon si Sandro. Pati tuloy ako napalingon.

"Repolyo?" seryoso niyang tanong. Natawa naman ako bigla. Ganun rin si Sandro.

"CABG pare. Coronary Artery Bypass Graft."

"Ang corny mo, Sandro." Wika ko. Natawa naman si Archer.

"Ay ay ba't ka nakikisali ha? Kami lang nag uusap!"

Sasagot pa dapat ako nung biglang tumonog ng maingay ang makina. Archer swiftly look at the technician.

"Dr, we lost signal."

Agad akong kinabahan. Pag nawala ang signal, maaaring maparalisa si Nuwagi. I bit my lower lip. Kahit si Sandro ay nagseryoso din.

"Let's ressect this."

Kahit pa kabado ako sa tunog, sumunod ako sa main surgeon ko. Kung ako it, ibabalik ko na lang ang maliit ng parte ng tumor. Matagal na may nakadagan na pressure sa spine, ngayong tinanggal ito nawala yung pressure na yon. Pati yung buto.

But I have to trust my surgeon that he knows what he is doing.

Fast but precisely he removed the tumor. Agaran kong inabot ang titanium sa kanya. When he placed it, the sound was gone.

"We got the signal back."

Nakahinga ako ng maluwag. Damn, sobra akong kinabahan don.

"Ayoko talaga mag neurosurgery! Pucha pag nabaldado yan cargo ko pa!"

Archer removed his microscope in fron of his eyes and found mine. He smiled at me. Hindi ko alam pero may humaplos sa puso ko. He mouthed 'thank you' to me and I don't know para saan yon pero ngumiti na lamang rin ako pabalik. I didn't do anything but he thanked me.

Pagkatapos ng surgery, pagod na pagod ko. Pabagsak akong humiga sa kama ko ng nakadapa. I was about to close my eyes when I felt someone massaging me. I smiled when I realized who that was is.

"Hindi ka pa magpapahinga?" I asked even though I can't see him. Ang sarap ng haplos niya. Nawawala yung masakit kanina.

"I'm resting when I'm with you."

Archer...why are you like this? Paano ko naman pipigilan sarili kong mahulog kung ganyan ka?

"Have you eaten your dinner?" tanong niya. Umiling ako. I heard him sigh.

"I'm too tired to eat. How's Nuwagi?"

"He's stable. Sandro's monitoring him right now."

Biglang tumahimik. Nilingon ko siya at nakita kong nakatingin lang siya sakin.

"Why?" I asked.

"Thank you for believing in me a while ago. I know you're doubting with the procedure I chose to do but you trusted me. Even if we lost the signal already, you trusted me. Damn, you made me fall harder and deeper."

Napabangon ako. I sat beside him. He slowly picked up my hand and played with it. Pinanood ko siyang gawin yon. His hands feels good with mine. I smlied at the thought. I want to hold this hand as I grow older.

"I want to hold this hand as I age."

Nagulat ako. Nagulat ako hindi dahil sa sinabi niya kundi dahil sa parehas kami ng iniisip.

Bakit kaya ganoon? Why is that, everything in him feels easy? Masyado ba kasing niroromanticize ng mga tao ang pain sa love at iniisip nila na dapat may pain muna para maconsider mo itong love?

Why is it in him everything is easy? Is love supposed to be this way all along?

Hinatak ko siya. I pulled him and kissed him. I know nagulat siya pero hindi ko na pinansin yon. I gave him soft kisses that later on, he responded.

Mapupusok nung una ngunit nung mag laon ay lumalim na ito. His tongue invaded mine, tasting every corner of my mouth. Ang kamay niya ay naglalakbay na sa katawan ko. Ang isa ay nasa leeg nakasuporta upang mahalikan ako lalo at ang isa naman ay nasa dibdib ko na. Suddenly, my scrubs felt rough on my skin. I felt the tingling sensation on my private part.

Nakakahiya! Why am I so ready for him!

He massaged my mounds, a moan escaped my lips, "Ugh,"

Bumaba ang halik niya. Mula sa labi ko ay napunta sa leeg ko. I felt how wet his kissed are. Hawak ko naman ang ulo niya at nasasabunutan na. Slowly he carried me to the center of the bed. He laid me down.

Tinulungan niya kong hubarin ang top scrubs ko. I felt hot. The way he look at my body, it was full of adoration and pleasure. May kung ano sa dibdib ko ang nagkapride dahil nakakapagbigay pleasure ako sa kanya. Muli ko siyang hinatak para mahalikan.

He started going down. His hot and wet mouth is busy sucking my nipples while his other hand was traveling down. He was touching my sensitive bud with my undies in it.

"Baby you're so wet.."

Impit ang boses ko dahil nahihiya ako. He inserted a finger and swear, I feel like a virgin again.

"Ugh, Archer oh my god!"

Dalawang daliri ang pinasok niya. Labas pasok ito at ramdam na ramdam kong may nabubuo sakin. Like I was reeaching for something.

Nagulat ako nung hubarin na niya ang pants ang underwear ko. Pipigilan ko pa dapat siya nang maramdaman ko ang kanyang labi sa ibaba ko. My back arched in pleasure.

"Archer!"

His tongue dive inside me. The rhythm, everything it excited me in the way I didn't know was possible.

I came. After I did, he crawled upwards.

I was panting.

"We won't do it unless your feelings are clear. Unless our feelings are mutual, that's when we'll make love. I can wait 'til you love me too. I love you."