Chasing Wild Redamancy

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

Strange

Parents are the one who guides us when things get perplex, they'll give us a word when we commit mistake, so that the next time, we will have our decisions correctly. What Mommy has been said lingered on my thoughts for the past days, ngunit mas nangingibabaw doon ang pagiging kuryuso. For the past weeks that David and I have been going out together it doesn't seem like a distraction.

I wouldn't want to break my promises to my parents, but I'm curious too. I want to prove a point to myself, that having this kind of relationship with David I can focus on my career too. And perhaps, if I can make myself believe, I can explain and convince my Mommy about it, I can change their mind about this. Without them getting hurt or being disappointed.

"From the start, in fifteen!" sigaw ng event organizer.

Nasa mismong venue kami ng gaganaping fashion show para sa darating na biyernes. The models that would be participating were collected from different managements.

Today was the finalization of all things. Gusto kasi ng designer na si Zeri ay perpekto ang lahat. There's no room for mistake and imperfections. I only have Eve with me today, siya ang nag aasikaso ng mga kakailanganin ko at dapat kong gawin sa mismong fashion show.

"I don't know why, Tito Zeri chooses that naïve," I heard a voice from behind.

I was fixing my lashes when I heard a conversation.

"Eh, ang balita pa nga, this is her first show daw. She only do shoots and all." Sagot naman ng kausap.

Using my compact mirror, I'd find the sight of those leeches. Ginamit ang repleka nila sa aking salamin ay taas ang isang kilay ko silang pinanood. Hindi ako gagawa ng kahit anong aksyon dahil hindi naman ako ang kanilang pinag uusapan, I just felt annoyed to those girls who dragged others just to be on top.

"Palibhasa ay Cervantes at nagmula sa sikat na pamilya,"

Lumagutok ang aking compact mirror dahil sa lakas ng puwersa ng aking pagsara.

Hanggang ngayon ba naman ay hindi sila makalimot doon? I've work hard. I worked for my walk. There's this days, na nakakatamad dahil sa paulit ulit na paglalakad. May mga araw na halos maiyak na ako dahil sa sakit ng aking paa, my skin remonstrance, I had my blood and sweat. I did discipline myself just to be deserving. Hanggang ngayon ba naman hindi pa din ako karapat dapat? Kung hindi ngayon kailan?

For me there's no such things we need to be qualified of, to be deserving. Because as long as we have a good aim, we strive hard and fulfilled it with our hard work, we are deserving. Kasi hindi naman nasusukat sa pinag daanan iyon, hindi porket mas mahirap ang pinag daanan mo ay dapat ikaw na, No one can measures pain and sacrifices so we shouldn't compare it. We deal our pain and sorrow in our own different ways as it has impact in different ways.

I stand and walk towards them, I saw how their eyes widened in astonishment. Ang isang babaeng kasama ay tinaasan lamang ako ng kilay tila ipinapahatid na walang kasindak sindak saakin. I hope they can stand their words.

"I heard my name," I stated.

Ang babaeng maikli ang buhok ay masama akong tiningnan.

"Paano mo naman nakita eh nakatalikod ka?"

I surpassed into a nonchalantly laughed.

"Pinag uusapan niyo 'nga ako?" she was caught on her own mouth.

"Don't bragged to us, Cervantes!" anang ng kasama na kasing kulay ng tinta ng pusit ang lipstick. Bagay naman sa kaniya.  She looks like a squid.