Take My Hand || Jinson

Your real family

"How you dare to talk like that! You don't know anything! Jinyoungie was right, you are nothing more than selfish monsters!" Jihyo says now fuming as she was sure that the rest of the family would be over the situation but apparently not.

Jihyo's lively and happy eyes disappeared, letting only sadness, anger and disappointment be the only emotions shown to the family through her eyes. Tears were falling from her eyes, tears because of the anger, how could she be so stupid? Why didn't she realized before? Why didn't she realize Jinyoung was right and just believed him?

She leaves the house and ran after Jinyoung ignoring the calls from the family asking her to come black. She ran and ran but she couldn't catch u to him, she scream his name but he didn't stopped, they both kept running and running until they arrived to a house, to what used to be Jinyoung's house.

He opened the door and entered, Jihyo follow him in silence, she couldn't understand why they were there but she didn't ask, she knew that Jinyoung would explain it. The house gave Jihyo an uneasy feeling but if Jinyoung could find comfort inside the house then Jihyo will follow and just keep him company.

"It's to late to return to the clinic and I have no family. In case you are wondering, before my parents died, they left the right of the house to me." Jinyoung says emotionless once again. All those emotions he had learnt he couldn't remember at the moment, only sadness being the only emotion present.

"Jinyoungie you are wrong, you have a family who cares about you, and I'm not talking only about me and I most certainly not talking about those monsters back there that share the same bloodline." She finishes, Jinyoung now staring at her confused.... 'How could anyone be my family if they are not blood related?'

«Usually we say that our family is the one who is blood-related to us, and that is correct, or at least that's the way it's legally seen. But sometimes the ones who should be your family are a bunch of assholes who don't care about you and make you feel lost, thinking that you don't have a family who supports you, but that isn't true. Jinyoungie, your family are the one's who support you and is with you always, you may have a blood-related family but your real family is the one who you choose to call family, the ones who you trust and you know they trust you. Your family is always in your heart and it's chosen by your heart. You are not alone Jinyoungie. I promise you that!» Jihyo says now in tears after saying this, she doesn't want her cousin to ever hang around those monsters and she just wants him to be happy.

"But who? Who is my family then? WHO WOULD EVER WANT A MONSTER LIKE ME IN THEIR FAMILY!?" Jinyoung was now letting all his thoughts out increasing is voice as he went.

"You'll find out Jinyoungie, be patient. I'm going to give you a hint, the ones in the clinic care about you, DON'T YOU DARE push them away and let them be with you and help you and remember to help them as much as you can." Jihyo said as she was sick and tired of Jinyoung thinking he is a monster especially after what the 'Family' had said. Jihyo sniffled and looked at Jinyoung letting him know she wasn't lying or asking him, she was now Telling him that he shouldn't push anyone away.

"Thank you Jihyo" Jinyoung finished up not daring to meet her eyes as he thought he was just a disappointment to her and that he didn't deserve anyone like Jihyo.

Jihyo walked over to Jinyoung and engulfed him in a hug. Jinyoung then showed Jihyo around the house before he resided in his parents room for the night and Jihyo in his room.

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Jackson looked at himself in the mirror, seeing how contradictory he was. He felt happy but there was still tear stains on his cheeks, evidence that he had been crying. He knew that his happiness came from his disorder and it felt fake, even if he was happy, that happiness didn't feel real. He wanted to experience real happiness once in his life even if for a minute.

He couldn't do anything about his feelings other than accept them, so he stopped thinking about it and decided to do something for his new roommate. He really wanted Jinyoung to like him and be good friends but Jackson still thought that he had to do something to prove he is worth of a friendship so he got to thinking.

After thinking about it for a while, he decided on what to do, So now he just needed to actually get busy and do it. Jackson went to the art room and as always is was empty but that didn't bother him, actually he liked it that way because he could focus better and draw freely without anyone watching over his shoulder the whole time.

He took a paper and began to draw. Jackson didn't have a plan of what to draw or even how, he only wanted to express himself and his feelings, he wanted to give Jinyoung something made with all his heart. So he did, he let his heart guide the pencil and wanted to see where it would get him.

He started doing the first traces with the pencil, feeling calm after listening to the sound of the pencil drawing over the paper. He continued working on his artwork without thinking, just drawing what he felt that was right, following his heart. After some time he finished and looked  down at what he drew.

It was the way he found Jinyoung two days ago in his room; Jinyoung was in the bed stroking his hair while he was lying on his lap, but there was a difference. There was no tears, no sadness and no pain in his drawing, they were both smiling at each other, like if they were saying «Even though it hurts, I'm fine if I'm with you»

The drawing was beautiful and he thought that maybe one day it would become true, that maybe he would smile with Jinyoung feeling real happiness. He weirdly felt comfort in this picture he had just draw and he felt somewhat proud of himself.

He framed the drawing and placed it in a little bag to save it, after that he took multiple papers and began to draw a representation of every single feeling he could think of, giving them as much details as he could and making sure to transmit the feeling. After that he wrote the name of each feeling with a little description of each one, then he saved them in the same bag and sealed it. To say Jackson wasn't pleased with his own work would be a false statement. He was beyond excited to give Jinyoung the gift, he was hoping Jinyoung would like it and that it would somehow help him with his treatment.

He returned to his room, waiting for Jinyoung's arrival. He felt happy with his present and he hoped that one day, they could all be happy. 

He wants Youngjae to find someone that is willing to help him as well. He cares for Jinyoung and Youngjae so much and it made him sad when he saw Youngjae with a frown on his face. Youngjae was his only friend at the moment. 

He doesn't like seeing Jinyoung emotionless. Jinyoung he wanted to be friends with more then he knew. He was so excited to give Jinyoung his gift he didn't want sleep, but his eyelids grew heavier and before he knew it, he was sound asleep dreaming of Jinyoung's reaction to the gift.