The Geeky Girl

Because

Lily's POV

How can he be so stupid? He doesn't use his brain. I'm bad for him. Everything he do bad is all because of me. He almost died because of me.

When I walked away from him, I wanted to pack up and leave already. I wanted to drive home and accept my life. Even though I promise him that I won't leave him, he gives me reasons to do just that. He gives me a reason to convince myself that it's okay to leave. Why is he such an idiot?

Here I am, calling him stupid while I am stupid too for still putting up to him. Here I am packing my stuff and getting ready to call my mom to pick me up. I am ready to go back. The more I stay, the more I cause a problem. I almost put his life in danger.

As I packed my things, I sob and pour tears while I throw my unfolded clothes to my luggage bag. The lights were dimmed to fill me with my sorrow. I heard the door clicked.

"Lily." he whispered. I didn't bother to turn around. "Lily, I'm sorry." I still didn't answer. His apologies don't matter anymore. I heard him close the door shut.

I finally zipped my luggage shut and set it down the floor. I felt his hands grabbed my shoulders. "Lily." he whined.

"No, Mason." I finally spoke. "I try my best to put up with you. I try my best to not give up on you but you make it so hard for me. You make trouble every time. How can I convince myself that this relationship is worth fighting for?" I said, my back still facing him and I was still sobbing.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know that your drink was spiked that's why you were acting strange this afternoon. I'm sorry for assuming that you can leave me that easily for another guy. I'm sorry for letting my anger control me. I'm sorry for everything I do." he spoke. What does he mean by spiked? "I'm sorry. Lily, I didn't know. You were drugged that's why you were sucking that dick's face and I jumped into conclusion causing unnecessary problems. I didn't know and it's all because I am stupid." he said.

Spiked? Drugged? What is he talking about?

"I wasn't sucking anybody's face. I wasn't going to leave you for another guy. I wasn't going to do anything you assumed." I exclaimed.

"The drug wiped out your memory, Lily. Maddy said that you had no idea what was going on. I am an idiot. I was stupid for pushing you away. I am sorry." he said. I was drugged? But I set that aside.

"But you still didn't think. You always assume! You always put yourself in danger! You always look for the negative and when something good comes, you push them away just like how you pushed me away because I giggled?! Because George was being kind to me as he taught me how to stroke right?!" I turned around to yell at his face.

"I told you I was jealous! When I hear you giggle, all I hear is happiness and I was jealous that I wasn't the reason of that giggle. I didn't think." he said as he grabbed unto my shoulder.

I pushed it away. "See?! See what I mean?! Just because of a stupid giggle! Why do you have to think that way?! Mason, you should know that you're the only one who makes me really happy and the 'giggle?' That's just a stupid giggle but that doesn't mean I am interested in the people who caused me to giggle. Oh My Gosh! We're arguing because of a giggle!" I groaned.

I rolled my luggage, walking pass him. "Where you going?" he asked.

"Away from you. The more I am with you, the more you get yourself in danger." I snapped, turning around to the door.

"Who cares about my safety?!" he screamed. His safety?! I do. I can't believe this. I can't live knowing that I caused his pain. I can't live without him but I rather leave him than know that his life is always in danger because of me. "That doesn't matter. All what matters is you. All I care about is you. All I want is you!" he said.