The Fallen Queen~[✓]

ℭ𝔥𝔞𝔭𝔱𝔢𝔯 32

Etis I loved Etis.

But I was back home for some time. I had forgotten my laptop, which I realized after spending so much time there. I felt different although. My home seemed a bit offbeat. That was primarily because I had started to develop some power. The other day I set an entire curtain on fire. But I had much more to explore. It was just the beginning.

'Riya, Abhiraaj is here to stay with you. I mean all of us are going to drop Dad and Prateek off and we don't want to take you. It'll be of trouble. Plus he can clear some math doubts. Ask him Triangles.' Mom informed me, as she left for the main door. Grandma had gone to a nearby temple to pray.

Abhiraaj entered my room.

He looked eccentric in his white t-shirt and army pants. His hair was messy and he actually had a light beard. He was sixteen so that was pretty much puberty.

I decided to spend some time with him. Hopping off to Etis would be rude. I texted Ryan that I'd be a bit late.

Now, I had really moved on. I had a really great relationship with Ryan and I really, genuinely loved him. But then my love for him felt much different than what I felt for Abhiraaj.

Better I believe.

'Let's get to Math, Riya. Let's do geometry. How much did you get last time?' He asked as he fiddled around with my book. We sat down on my study table and he started teaching some basics to me. 'You know chill out. There's no need to study so much. Look at me. I just do ten sums per day. Also now, solve this one please.'

'I can't.'

'Try Riya. If you don't try how will you know? Come on now!'

I half-heartedly did the sum. I was sure it was wrong. It was so embarrassing. Like he was just a year older and terrible in math, but I was worse.

'That's right man! See, all you need is sheer confidence!' Ayum chuckled.

'Yes!' I shouted and jumped around. I like jumping a lot. I also hugged Ayum in excitement. I know it was me being unusually active, but hey!

I got the math right!

But then, something really surprising happened. It was literally unprecedented.

I don't know what exactly went wrong. Or right. He looked into my eyes. I looked into his. All the efforts, all that I thought about I moved on, just disappeared. I was still battling the fact that I had a boyfriend and I loved him very much. We were short of nothing in our relationship. We were meant to be with each other.

Ayum slowly kissed me. My world either crashed or something happened which was beyond my reach to understand. I constantly reminded myself that I was committed, I still was, my love for Ryan was no less than anything in this world, but I let Ayum kiss me.

My walking dream.

In the next few moments, I forgot about Ryan completely. I chose to drive away any feeling I had far away, except for looking at Ayum. I don't know what got into me.

He placed one of his hands on my chin and pulled me into his mouth. He delved in deeper and I kissed him back. Every instance, every moment I ever looked at him lovingly came flooding back into my mind. And we wouldn't stop.

We couldn't stop.

'I..' He started. We finally came back to our senses. Ayum, the guy I loved since fifth grade, finally kissed me. But it was too late. And it was a horrible thing I'd done.

I felt like breaking down, and I did. I betrayed my best friend, my boyfriend, my love, for a guy who has a girlfriend and just kissed me maybe probably for fun. But then, I had longed for this guy every single day for the past four years of my life.

Why Ayum why? Just when I thought it was over, it started again. I hated the fact that I couldn't resist him. I didn't put enough effort to resist him. I sound like the biggest slut in this world. I am.

Tears streamed down my face. Ayum kissed them away. I had no words. 'This is wrong. So wrong.'

'We should probably not care about right and wrong when we're speaking of our heart. I know for the world its wrong, it is completely and I don't expect anyone to understand. My girlfriend, your boyfriend, our families. We've just betrayed them, big time. But Riya, if I wouldn't have done that, it'd be an injustice to both of our feelings. I know this isn't the right time, but I don't regret what I did.'

'You know I had so much problem to get over you? You know how hard it was for me? I always tried to push my feelings away for you, because I sensed not even a tiny reciprocation from you. I didn't wanna offend you. I dated a kid for some time only to prove to myself that you don't matter. Because I don't for you. I tried one-sided love, but it's painful. And now finally, I had found the guy I wanted to be with, the guy who loves me, and you drop this grenade on me? I don't blame you, you didn't know I had a boyfriend, but then all these years, you felt nothing?' I wailed. It was too much to take in.

'I denied it. I thought it would never happen, but now I know.' He protested.

I knew all this was wrong, but the truth was what?

I didn't regret it. The kiss. Because I loved Ryan and he was my life, but Abhiraaj had left such a mark on me that somehow, he resided in my heart. In maybe a tiny corner, but he'd always be there. Or maybe for a very long time. And it is what happens maybe. At least for me.

Because, because of this, it didn't mean that I loved Ryan less or he wasn't enough.

Ayum just had that tiny corner of my heart.

And I couldn't do anything to take it away from him.