Found In The Wild Waves

Chapter 24

Rain Drops...

Mag-isa akong naglalakad papunta sa park. I' glad that i met new people whom became my friends. I am glad that they came into my life, but i also miss being alone most of the times. I want to be alone, but that doesn't mean that having people around you is a bad thing. I just miss those days when i can think deeply and silently.

I looked up at the sky. Itinaas ko pa ang kaliwan kamay ko na parang hinaharangan ang sinag ng araw na diretso tumama sa mukha ko. The weather is really nice today. I'm glad that i decided to take a walk.

Inikot ko ang paningin ko sa buong paligid. The place is really beautiful. It is perfect for everyone. And i know how precious this place is because behind it, this place had seen many moments of every people's lives. Happy or sad memories is it. If it can only talk, i'd love to listen to it all day. It probably have the most amazing strories.

I looked at those people who are laughing very hard. I wonder if ther were really happy or they are just pretending. I wonder if behind those smiles, they were really suffering.

There are children playing. Their smiles are really precious. I wish i can just be a child again. Times were really nice back then. Maybe not as nice like them, but i'm not that misserable back then. But i also wonder, these children might also be hurting deep inside. After all, not all smiles are true. Mostly, it is just a facade. Thinking that behind those silly laughs, there are children who are probably a victims of abusive acts and it's making my heart ache.

Those people who seems to love their jobs. I wonder if they really like their jobs. Or they are just putting up with it because it is practical. I wonder if they were really happy or they are already tired because of how bad they are treated at work.

The elders who has a simple smile on their lips while watching the children plays. I wonder if they were really happy on their lives. I wonder if they are contented on how they lived their lives. I wonder if they are genuinely happy now or they are in so much pain deep inside because the truth is, they are abandoned by their own children.

I also saw a doctor. He is spacing out. He didn't evem notcied that a kid fell right in front of him. As if he was lost in thoughts and when you look at him, he seems pretty sad. I wonder what he's going through right now. All i can say from here is that he's in pain. Maybe he lost one of his patients on his own hands. It must have been very devastating for him.

And there were also teenagers. They were coming of age just like me. They were really happy. Doing the things that they like. Doing everything that they can do for now. I wish i can do as much as them. I wish i can enjoy like just like what they are doing, but i do also kmow that they are just like everybody else. No matter how bright their smiles are, most of them are suffering deep inside. Someone might have been fighting anxiety attacks and depression alone. How i wish i can help them.

I wish to help and save them, but i couldn't even help and save my own self. I am hopeless.

Tumingala ako sa langit saka pumikit. People around won't notice all of pur pain unless they have also experienced the same pain. People's lives varies depending on how the person lived their lives the reason why we cannot just judge other person's life. We definetly doesn't have any rights.

It is cruel how a person's life is immediately judged just by looking at their house, clothes, properties, bank accounts, and anythig else without taking a great consideration on their biggest battle. Their sufferings and pain.

A people may look happy at all times. Having a bright smile plasteres on their own lips. They almost look perfect, but no one is born perfect and being imperfect isn't a sin at all. People who looks fine may not be totally fine.