CHAPTER 39- Idea
Demi's POV
Nicko wasted no time, within ten minutes I heard the door open downstairs and footsteps coming down the hallway. A knock sounded on my door and I got up, holding Mia to my chest to open it. Nicko pulled me into a hug and kicked the door shut behind him, holding me for a few minutes before pulling away and gripping my shoulders.
"What did she say to you?"
I bit my lip, "She told me that I was a whore who kept you away from them, and that I've changed you. She said that you're not dad material and that the second you get scared you'll run away."
Nicko put his face in his hands, "Demi that's not true. I'm not going anywhere."
I nodded, "No I know that, I just... I don't know I wanted you here."
He sighed and sat on the bed, taking Mia from me and stroking her head, "I don't see myself as anything else other than a dad. It's weird how much my life has changed."
I smiled and sat next to him, "Well you do make a great dad. Who knows, maybe we'll have another one some day." I noticed the way Nicko tensed, and it got awkward once I realized what I'd said. "I'm sorry."
He shook his head, "No it's okay actually, you just gave me a lot more hope than I had before."
I leaned into him, "I told you I can't see myself with anyone else, that doesn't mean enough to you?"
He smiled, "Of course it does, because I know that I feel the same way. But that little slip about us having more kids kind of solidified it."
I touched his cheek lightly and smiled, "Good." Our lips met, and I finally felt safe, I felt at home.
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"Thank you so much for everything." Nicko's mom said, hugging me tightly as we were leaving to go to the airport.
"Of course, if you ever need anything don't hesitate to ask." I promised, and then let Nicko say goodbye to his mom. They hugged for a long time, then she whispered something into his ear and his cheeks turned bright red as he looked at me.
"Goodbye my angel." Deborah cooed and touched Mia's sleeping cheek. "I'll see you soon."
"Alright, let's go." Nicko took my hand and we waved one last goodbye to his mom as we pulled away from the house with Mia in a carseat in the back.
"What did she say to you?" I asked, as Nicko drove.
He chuckled, "She said that she wants to see another grandbaby by the time we visit again."
I blushed, "I can't believe it. That's so awkward that she knows we've had sex."
Nicko looked over at me like I was crazy, "Uhm.. You do realize that it's completely normal and that she'd think we'd be having sex even if we didn't have the baby to prove it.
"Of course I realize that but it's still.. I don't know it's just weird."
He smiled at me, "You're so cute."
I let a grin take over my features and looked out the window. I saw Nicko's hand shift to the center consol before freezing and going back to his lap. I rolled my eyes, knowing that he was conflicted as to whether or not he could put it on my thigh like normal and grabbed it, moving it to my leg. He looked over and smiled, then focused back on the road.
The airport security let us through quickly since we were on a private jet. Nicko was holding Mia and cooing with her face close to his when I got back from using the bathroom.
"Look at you two." I smiled, rubbing his back as I sat down. "The cutest."
Nicko shot a smile towards me then looked back down at Mia, unable to keep his gaze off of her for very long.
"She's still so small." He murmured, as Mia wrapped her entire hand around one of his fingers. "So beautiful."
I could feel my heart ready to burst as Nicko played with our daughter. I wanted to run into his arms again and tell him that I had no second thoughts, that I wanted to be with him forever and I had no doubts in my mind, but I'd be lying. Because doubt is a huge issue in my mind. I couldn't convince myself that he wouldn't leave me, or fuck up again.
Eventually, Mia fell asleep, and Nicko and I were left alone together.
"So are you coming home with me or going to you mom's house?"
I sighed, I' been dreading him asking this question for awhile, but knew he was going to ask it.
"Nicko... I think I'm gonna go home."
He frowned, "But you said..."
"I know what I said. I just don't know if we should jump into this. I was talking to Marissa and she mentioned something that intrigued me..."
Nicko squared his shoulders, "Oh yeah? What's that?"
I bit my lip, scared of his reaction, "You have to promise to hear me out... because I think this will be good for us." He nodded and I took a deep breath, "She thought it'd be a goo ideas to test ourselves... Because we're so focused on each other we don't realize the toxicity of our relationship. By test, I mean go on a date... with another person."
I saw Nicko visibly tense, "And that's something you want to do?"
I sighed, "That's the thing. I don't know if I want to or not. Yes, it might give me closure but I don't want to be on a date with someone else, it would feel weird."
Nicko rolled his eyes, "So what happens if you, or better yet, I, fall in love with the person we'd go on a date with? What if this causes more harm then good?"
I shrugged, "Then that's the way it was meant to be. If you're truly happy, I can't ask for anything else."
Nicko leaned back, "ALright, we'll go on one or two dates with another person, but no creeps."
"And no strippers." I added, and smirked and he rolled his eyes.
"Fine but I think it's best if I'm not around when you go on that date of yours, or he might end up in the hospital."
I rolled my eyes but smiled, "That's probably a good idea."
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