Davinson Lucress (UNDER REVISION)

Chapter 26

Life

If you would define life in your own words, what do you think would be your definition about it? Some people say that we all have different definition about what life is because we have different experiences and challenges that we have face and fought that makes us define what life is.

For me, life is all about who you make a meaning to. Before everything fell into their wrong places I have always taught I have everything in life. I have the most understanding and caring parents, the most amazing sister and the man of my life, Jace.

It was a picture of a very perfect life everybody dreamt of, or should I say I taught?

I remember my sister hating Jace when she found out that Jace and I were dating, it was when I was seventeen. For me, it was a sudden relationship, it was impossible for me to find someone I love when I don't go to school because I was homeschooled, but as soon as I realiz ewhat really happened, it makes sense..

I can feel that Jace is keeping secrets away from me, he doesn't even gives me his cellphone anyway, I know I trusted him but I often see him talking to someone I don't know. Maybe I trusted him too much that I end up hurting myself, that I end up letting him fall for someone else without me knowing.

When I found out that he was cheating, I cried, I cried in my sisters shoulder while asking her the question 'why' for how many times. I thought I was the one wrong here, I thougt ako ang nagkulang kaya niya ako ipinagpalit sa iba. I thought I am not worth it, I thought I don't fit to be his girlfriend.

We were together for almost a year but we didn't go out that much like how any other couples do, we just text, call each other day by day and he's visiting me on weekdays here in my house, apart from that we don't have any other memories nor experiences together.

Weeks before we separated Jace asked for forgiveness and so I said yes, and I didn't thought that it was a wasted second chance because months before we got back together he cheacted again and this time it was the worst. Her girlfriend got pregnant, I mean we didn't even kiss or something but he ended up pregnanting someone.

I was fuming mad at that time, I was blaming myself for being so stupid, I believed in the wrong person again, I trusted the wrong person again. It was my first heart break so it's hard, but you know what's even harder, I can't let go of him.

""P-Please, please my son needs a father." The woman in front of me plead, her eyes is red and so as her nose.

She kneeled in front of me, crying and begging for the freedom of his man.

I just stared at her, I'm so mad and as well as confused, I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do.

Bakit parang ako pa ata ang nagmukhang mang-aagaw sa dito? Bakit parang ako pa ata ang walang karapatan na makuha si Jace mula sa kaniya. Why does it felt like I am left no choice but to let go? I turn my back to her as I finally say the words.

"M-Mahal ko siya, pero hindi ko maipagkakailang kailangan ng bata ng kaniyang ama, umalis kana." I said as tears fell from my eyes. I heard her sigh in relief while my heart ache because of my sudden decision.

I never knew that life would be this cruel. I have always fight for the one's I love but guess what, all this time I have fought alone, so I give up. After moving on for how many years I can still early remember how it all went along.

But seeing Davinson right now is a different level, I can finally say that I'v moved on and I reliazed that I didn't love Jace at all, I was just blinded by his words that I broke my heart. Loving Davinson is a different kind of level, it makes me ask myself, 'can I even forget nor leave this man?'.