Davinson Lucress (UNDER REVISION)

Chapter 16

Jealous

I stopped running to catch for my breath when someone grabbed my arm. I was about to shout at the person who grabbed me when I saw who it was.

Davinson Lucress is standing in front of me with nothing but a cold expression.

"What?" I spat.

"I'll bring you home." He said.

"Why would you?"I asked angrily.

"Wala ka ng masasakyan pa dito, your Dad would be worried."

"Who cares?"

"They do."

"And you don't?

"Adayna." Matigas niyang sabi kaya pinaghahampas ko naman ang dibdib niya.

"Leave me alone!" malakas kong sabi sa kaniya pero hindi niya ako binitawan.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko ng bigla niya akong buhatin para dalhin sa nakaparada niyang motor.

"Why are you doing this to me?" mahina kong tanong sa kaniya.

"I'll take you home." He said avoiding my question.

I stared at his face; he's no longer the Davin I knew. He's being coldhearted to me.

I burst into tears that made him stopped walking and looked at me.

"Why are you crying now?" tanong niya pero alam kong nag-aalala na siya. "Wipe those tears away." He said coldly but I know he's just trying to act coldly towards me.

"Bakit ka ganiyan?!"

"Hindi ba at ito naman ang gusto mo? Ang mapalayo ako sayo." Ani nito.

"That's not what I meant!" I shouted at him.

Naglakad na siyang muli at ibinaba ako sa harapan ng motorsiklo niya. He got his helmet and put it on my head. Hinawakan niya pa ang iilang hibla buhok kong nililipad ng malakas na hangin.

"I want you to fucking chase for me, to fucking love me even though you are hurting me this bad Davin." I said, tears in my eyes.

"Well I am tired of chasing you Adi." Sabi nito bago sumakay sa motorsiklo niya. "...I am tired of loving you." His last words struck at me like a lightning.

Hindi ako nakagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko habang nakatitig sa kaniya.

I am now ready! Fuck, I am already ready giving him the forgiveness he's asking! Ganoon ako karupok pagdating dito and yet!

Ganoon nalang ba kadali para sa kaniya iyon. Hindi na ako muling nagsalita pa habang binabaybay namin ang madilim at malamig na daan. Niyakap ko ang sarili ko kahit nakasuot naman talaga ako ng jacket, the air is freezing me but I can't feel anything but heartache. My heartaches so bad that I couldn't help but to stay quiet. 

I spent weeks being absent in the class because I got high fever the next day. Sinadya kong magpaulan ng isang araw para magkasakit ako, I don't care though, dahil parang wala lang din naman sa akin ang sakit ng katawan at panghihinang nararamdaman ko. Nangingibabaw parin ang sakit na nararamdaman ko mula pa noong nakaraan. 

I've been lying on my bed for the last few days just staring at my white, plain ceiling. Palagi din akong pinagsasabihan ni Mommy na matulog nalang para makapagpahinga ako ng husto but the thoughts are overflowing in my mind, parang walang katapusang pag-iisip ng kung ano ngaba at kung ano pa ba ang magagawa ko. 

Mom is with me all the time, Dad on the other hand insisted to be with me too pero marami pa siyang inaasikasong trabaho. Ate Nicky is usually out for the past few days and she's been telling us that she's visiting Dayn but I knew she didn't. Who would visit at the hospital so early in the morning and got home in the middle of the night.