Ariana's diary

She is loud

Original by Sia

Ok not to be ok by Demi Lovato and Marshmallow

Formula by Labrinth

Ariana's pov

I sat on the chair Aiden left me on angry at myself. Should I have told him about Jake?

I had conflicting feelings about it. With everything Jake said at the store, he would not think twice before making that video viral if I messed up. 

I needed to find a way to delete every copy of that destructive thing he had with him. By all means.

I sighed and pulled my hair really hard, cursing silently.

" Damn it!" I almost yelled in frustration.

" Aiden does not need to know right? I mean, we are not even close and I can't trust anyone. I don't know how Jake always finds a way to get to me. It has to be through someone around me and I have to find that person. You just have to dance to his tunes for a while and you would destroy that video. " I kept talking myself.

" Yeah! Gosh, I am so smart. Yeah, I am." I started smiling and patting my head, feeling like a genius.

" I feel like a fool." I suddenly said and buried my head in between my legs.

" What do I do?" I started pacing round the room.

" Come on girl. Think. THINK!" 

" First thing to do, calm down and act like nothing is happening. Yeah. Nah." I was obviously confused. I kept giving myself reasons and contradicting them the very minute I said it.

I finally sat on Aiden's bed and stared at his clock. I looked round his room and I noticed how huge it was. 

I didn't even realise that.

It was three times bigger than my room and was all black and white. 

This guy doesn't have colours does he? 

The third colour in the room was grey. What was the freaking difference?!

I stared at his table and saw a photo of him and the little girl I met earlier. Mary.

I found her sweet because she was able to shut Aiden up. It was the coolest thing I ever witnessed. I turned to another picture of him, a lady and Mary in their middle. She was dragging Aiden's ear really bad. I chuckled and turned to the next picture. A picture of him, Jamal and Kevin. It was nice to see because they all had wide smiles on their faces. I kept looking round the room and noticed he didn't have any pictures of him and his parents. Weird. 

I had up to twenty pictures of me and my parents but they were all somewhere in the room. Not like I remembered.

" Ariana, are you okay? What is the difference?" I asked myself and stood in front of his wardrobe. It had a huge mirror beside it so it was cool to look at how ugly I looked at the moment. 

I kept changing expressions and making faces at the mirror until I got tired.

" When would jerk face come back? Is he mad at me?" I said to myself and sighed. I brought out the document Mr. Walter gave me and went through the questions again. It was really boring because I had gone through everything before. I kept turning the pages until I heard a loud scream downstairs. I shaked immediately because it was really loud and sounded scary.

" Wasn't that Mary's voice? No, she would be okay. Aiden should be there." I said and relaxed in the bed.

" No, I should go check her out." I said and ran out of the room. I rushed down the stairs and saw everyone looking at the entrance.