Someone Borrowed (Completed)

PART 5

One last cry

I cried last night until I fell asleep. I don't want this damn feeling. I never wanted to feel this kind of pain. I'm at the verge of crying again when someone buzz my intercom. Kahit pa ayaw kong sagutin iyon ay napilitan na lamang ako. Who would come here at this early morning? Anong oras na ba?

"Hello?" I lazily answered as I checked the time on the side table.

"SELENA! Open the damn door." Pasigaw na sabi sa akin ni Brooke. Jesus! Ano ba nakain ng babaeng ito at ang aga agang pumunta dito?

"I can hear you B. You don't have to shout okay?" Naririndi ko pang sabi sa kanya.

"I can sense you're still on your Pj's. Geez! Selena I told you pupunta tayo ngayon kay Wayne diba? Have you forgotten that?" Mukhang hysterical pa niyang sabi. Oh that damn puntahan si Wayne thing.

"I'm sick. I don't feel well now Brooke." Pagsisinungaling ko na lang, well hindi naman as in kasinungalingan, may katotohanan naman yun. After he dumped me? Sino ba namang matapang at martyr na babaeng pupuntahan ang lalakeng nanakit sayo kahapon? Of course that is not so me. I have my pride higher than the eiffel tower or even petronas tower! Tinatamad pa nga akong pagbuksan ang babaeng to pero kailangan dahil kung hindi, naku, for sure, she'll definitely call the staffs or even the owner of this building! May pagka oa kasi itong si Brooke eh. Pero mahal ko siya, kahit may pagkakatok.

"You're really sick?" Agad niyang tanong sabay hawak sa noo ko. Napaikot na lamang ako ng mata. "Wala ka namang lagnat eh! Langya ka. Ayaw mo lang yata lumabas eh?!" Inis niya pa akong sinapak sa noo pagkatapos.

"Aray naman Brooke eh. Masama talaga ang pakiramdam ko.!" Nagpapapadyak ko pang sagot. Pinaningkitan pa ako ng mga mata ng gaga. Ayaw pa yatang maniwala?

"Did you take a med.already?" Nag aalala na niyang tanong at pumasok nang dumiretso sa kusina. Binuksan niya yung cabinet at mukhang naghanap ng gamot. "Bakit wala pa ring laman ang cabinet mo? Di ka ba naggroceries man lang kahapon? Eh saan ka pumunta maghapon kahapon?" Magkakasunod na niyang tanong at nakatingin sa akin.

"I don't have the time. I went somewhere far from the grocery stores." Napahikab pa ako pagkatapos sagutin ang tanong niya. Tumalikod na ako at pumasok ulit sa kwarto para humiga. Naramdaman ko naman ang pagsunod niya sa akin pero di ko na lang pinansin. "I just want to take a rest. Maybe this is still a jet lag thing. I didn't get enough sleep yet Brooke." Tinatamad kong patuloy na sabi. Inaantok ako and I feel like so lazy really, right now.

"Something is wrong with you Sel. I know. I can feel it. And your eyes is kinda swollen. What happened yesterday that you are not telling me?" Napansin na niya! Kainis talaga tong lukaret na to eh! But sorry Brooke. I don't want to share anything yet. Not yet. Now now. Maybe when the time is right, maybe when I am ready to tell. Maybe. I don't know. I just don't want to talk about anything that reminds me of how he just dumped me when I was so ready to get him back. I mean, that's bullshit!

"You sound like my mother Brooke. I am fine. I just missed the family who adopted me before. But I don't have the guts to talk to them." Giit ko na lang. Yes i missed them badly too, but the pain of Wayne's marked in me is worst!

"Oh sorry. Maybe uh. You need to rest. Ako na lang siguro ang pupunta kay Wayne. O better, ipag grogrocery na lang kita. Bahala na siyang makatuklas kina Lu." Pagbabalewala na niya ng sitwasyon! Yeah right, that scene. That kissing scene part.

"Can we not just talk about things like that Brooke? I don't want negative vibes." Medyo naiirita ko ng sabi. Napaawang naman ang bibig niya. Oh right Sel, you just gave her a hint!

"Oh. Yeah. Let's not. Sorry. Sleep well okay. Iwan muna kita. Babalik din lang ako mamaya. I'll buy some groceries." Paalam na niya. Hindi naman na ako umimik pa. I heard the door closed. She left. I chose to hide him before. Maybe Wayne really deserves a girl who can be proud of him. But the girl isn't the right one for her! At iyon ang hindi ko matanggap! Kung siguro hindi ko nakita noong isang araw na may kahalikan iyong babae, siguro kung hindi din si Luoie iyon, baka sakaling matanggap ko pang pwede silang mangyaring dalawa, pero nakita ko eh. Ang puta, nakikipaghalikan sa kaibigan ko! Letse! Iiyak nanaman ba ako? Aba hindi na noh? Swerte mo Wayne. Hindi na ako iiyak. Hindi na ako iiyak. But damn, bakit may tumulo? Laway ko ba iyon? Hindi eh! Sa mata? Laway? Tanga lang Selena? Oh yes! And again, I fell asleep crying. But I know for sure, this would be my one last cry.