Ever growing 2

Chapter 20

My eyes flutter open, I feel his arm around my waist, his body pressed against mine, and his scent wrapping over me. Working so much lately allowed me to take the day off, I knew I wouldn't want to leave his side yet. Being apart is usually hard but the past few weeks had been grueling without knowing how he was doing. Even though he didn't open up about the whole experience, I noticed a change in his demeanor like he's finally found some serenity. Slowly, I turn around to face him. His lips are slightly parted, his eyes closed, he's looking peaceful. My finger runs on the side of his handsome face tracing a line from his eyebrow to his chin up and down. Without opening his eyes he tightens his hold on my body pulling me to kiss my lips. I then bury my face in his chest holding onto him tightly.

"Morning, babe," he whispers against my hair.

"Morning to you my sexy baby!" I say into his chest feeling it tremble from the laugh that escapes his lips.

"No, YOU are sexy!" he tickles me causing me to giggle and squirm under his touch as I try to get out of his arms. He's too strong for me trapping me in his grip, giggling. After a minute, I'm out of breath begging him to stop. He rolls us around, me beneath him as he hovers on top resting on his hands with a serious look on his face. I'm mesmerized looking into his eyes as they go from staring into mine to looking at my lips. I'm expecting him to kiss me when he starts talking.

"Do you hate me for..." He trails off getting emotional.

"For what?" I bring my hand up pressing it to his cheek.

"Causing you to...you know... to lose," his green eyes are now filled with tears.

"Ryan! Me losing the baby wasn't your fault!" I wipe his eyes with my thumbs as he leans his body into mine burying his face in the crook of my neck shaken by sobs. I hold him for a while waiting for his sobs to stop while rubbing my hands on his back. Once he calms down, I reach for his face making him look at me again.

"We knew it was risky and you going to work did not cause me to lose the baby. Life decided that it wasn't the right moment and there aren't any other reasons why it happened. I don't hate you! I love you, I've never loved anyone as much as I love you. You are my forever, Ryan!"

"I love you, Ella," he says in a small voice.

"Did you talk about it in treatment?" I ask softly.

"Yeah, I also wrote about it. I'm sorry, baby. I promise I'm doing better. I just needed to hear you say the words," His lips press onto mine giving me a taste of his tongue.

After a few more minutes, our makeout session comes to a stop when his phone rings. Laura is calling to talk about a new project that sounds interesting she says. I let him talk to her while I make my way to the kitchen to fix us some breakfast. He walks in just as I'm setting the plates on the table. Thanking me he then tells me about the project that will require him to leave in a week to fly to Spain. A new clothing brand asked him to represent the brand, they want him to meet with them so they can create items that represent him as well as doing some shooting with the items they already have. He should be there for about two weeks. We're both very excited about it.

Emma and Trevor came over for dinner, the two of them have been dating ever since we went out that one night. Seeing my friend happy with a great man is so nice. She definitely deserves to be loved, my friend has always been there for me, she's such an amazing girl. Trevor and Ryan get along great too.

"Thanks for having us for dinner guys," Trevor says, finishing his second plate of spaghetti.

"As long as you treat her well, you'll be welcome here. Otherwise, I'll chop your balls!" I say trying to sound menacing.

"Ella! Trevor has been very nice to me!" Emma comes to his defense.

"He better be!" I say. I feel protective of my friends.

"Alright, Trevor my baby is getting feisty so let's go play some games," Ryan laughs planting a kiss on my cheek before mouthing "I love you" as he walks to the living room with Trevor.

Emma and I start cleaning up the table and doing dishes.

"Ryan seems to be in a good mood right?" she asks, lowering her voice.

"He told me he thought he caused the loss of our baby and he thought I hated him for it," I reply in the same tone making sure he can't hear us.

"What? That's crazy! That's not true right?" She turns to face me.

"Of course not! He's not responsible for it and I could never hate him!"

"The bond between you two is beautiful, what made him think you would hate him?"

"I don't know! I made sure not to push him away like I normally would when I'm going through a rough time but I guess he didn't know how to deal with it." I look down.

"What are you whispering about?" Ryan startles me walking into the kitchen stopping right by us.

"Girl talk!" Emma tells him with a light slap to the chest.

"Alright sorry! Just grabbing a beer for your boyfriend," he pecks my lips, getting the beer and walking away. Emma hugs me before going back to our task. We get into a conversation about Trevor instead, with her telling me how happy he makes her. It's truly a blessing that all three of us found love almost at the same time.