4 days later
I've been waking up on my side of the bed away from her for the past few days and I hate it but it's the only way for me not to try and break her no sex rule. Tomorrow will mark one week I'm hoping I can last until then. My balls have been hurting every time I stare at her sexy curves. I nearly came in my pants watching her full lips nibbling on a pen yesterday. I understand we have to stop solving our issues with sex but we're not even fighting or going through any personal issues right now. Frustrated I turn on the cold water needing to make this raging hardon go away. We obviously can't shower or bathe together otherwise we'll break the rule. My hand goes to my cock without thinking, stroking myself. "I need her touch," I think when I can't get off.
"Babe, can you hurry, we need to leave soon!" she calls for me from the other room causing me to stop touching myself. We have to go to the hospital for her to get another test done.
Once I'm dressed and ready to go I lead her to the car holding her hand. The day goes by smoothly running some errands after the appointment but I'm getting angrier by the minute. I can't seem to shake off the bad mood. Ella senses it too trying to hold my arm showing affection which only increases my frustration knowing she won't let me touch her today. I'm not trying to be an asshole about it, I'm just annoyed and I miss that aspect of our relationship. I love that we've been having deeper conversations but I hate that I have to stop myself from touching her.
Ella suggests I hangout with Trevor while she sees Emma tonight. I'm going to his place where we'll play a new game that just came out.
"So how have you and Ella been?" he asks, taking a sip of his beer. "I wish I could have one."
"Mostly fine," I say.
"Mostly? You don't sound too convincing." He laughs.
"I love her and we get along great but her fucking therapist suggested we avoid having sex for a week. So that's been fun," I say in a sarcastic tone.
"Oh! How do you manage to keep your hands off of her? Emma and I are always banging, I can't imagine..." He trails off when he sees the look on my face which is probably so pathetic.
"I don't really have a choice. Like I said I love her and I'm willing to do what's best for her. My balls are hurting but yeah."
"Well let's play the new game, release some of your tension by killing a bunch of people!" Trevor says.
Hours later I'm close to home but the pressure is killing me. Seeing Trevor drinking made me crave it, I know it's wrong but I need one right now. I can drink one only. She'll never know. I stop by a store and buy a single bottle. The thing is that it's a big bottle. Parked at our place, I open it and drink.
My mind is hazy when I decide to go in without having mints like I originally planned on doing. I guess I forgot. She's laying on the couch when I stumble in. She stands up walking to me at a fast pace.
"Are you fucking drunk?" she screams at me.
"I think so," I laugh.
"Trevor let you drink?" Her voice echoes in my mind.
"No...No, I stopped at the store...You're looking hot!" I try to reach for her but she moves back.
"Let's not do a repeat of the last time you got drunk," she glares at me.
"Let me just hold you, the week is over. I want to make you feel good." I try to walk closer.
"Get out!" she yells.
"What? No!" I whine.
"Get the fuck out now!" She opens the door pushing me until I'm out of the apartment.
I ran to the car hiding from the cold. I can't drive anywhere because I'm drunk so I just sit there. As the minutes are passing by, I sober up. And then I start hating myself. I was supposed to make up for her birthday and now I fucked up again. Grabbing the bottle I throw it across the window at the wall of our place.
I must have fallen asleep somehow because I woke up with the sun shining on my face. I open the door of the car praying she'll let me in.
I then open the door of the flat where everything is silent. I quietly walk in removing my boots and coat. Turning around I come face to face with her. I hold my breath anticipating her reaction.
YOU ARE READING
Ever growing 2
Fiksi PenggemarSecond book. Ella and Ryan are facing new challenges forcing them to push themselves. Ryan will reveal things about himself that may rock their world. Will they make it through the hardships as a couple?
