Because Of Him~2 (Draco Malfoy)

Chapter 36~ Feel Again

I awoke the next morning to the door opening, I jumped up from the
rickety bed pointing my wand at the door which opened to reveal Ron holding Pastries and heeps of beer and firewhiskey in his hands.

"Woah woah.. It's just me" He smiled as I lowered my wand "Happy Christmas" Ron said in a sarcastic tone as I put my wand back on the bedside table before walking towards Ron

"Happy Christmas" I said taking some of the things out of his hand.

"Figured this would give us something to do today" Ron laughed as he and I both sat on the cold wood floor, the only place to sit in the filthy room

"I haven't had alcohol in so long" I said

"Well good thing I got loads of it" Ron smiled

And that's what we did for Christmas. we ate pastries and got extremely drunk.. laughing and joking.. we played cards and completely ignoring the coming war that was taking over our world, ignoring everything that was happing outside, forgetting the fact that everything was falling apart around us.. that nothing would ever be the same again.

Later once it was dark outside and Ron and i had somehow managed to drink every last drop of the alcohol that he purchased .. the only thing lighting up Ron and The small room was a petite candle lit by his dilluminator.. We sat slumped against the beds starring in silence at the cheap wood flooring.. The sadness of reality of what was happening came over me..

"I'm scared" I whispered

"Of what?" Ron asked

"Of everything.. what happens next.. what if I never see him again?"

"Draco?" Ron questioned

"Yes" I said looking up at the ceiling "I'm terrified"

"I'm worried I'll never see Hermione again" Ron said quietly "I'm sure she hates me now"

"You're in love with her aren't you?" I asked, he nodded his head slowly as a silent tear made its way down his cheek

"I am..I can't believe i hurt her and now I'm never going to see her again." Ron said putting his head in his hands.

I could tell he was sobbing now.

I pulled myself off the ground before walking to the other side of the room sliding against the wall wrapping my arms around him as he cried.

"It's going to be alright.. we're going to be ok" I whispered as he slowly lifted his head to look at me, we stared at eachother for a moment as the intensity in the room began to rise. He starred into my eyes desperately scanning them for anything. I blinked twice before I crashed my lips into his. I knew we both felt the same.. craving for someone to touch us.. just so we might feel something again. Hoping that the feeling of another would wash away the pain of losing everyone we ever loved. If only it could. If only kissing your best friend could make everything go away. It couldn't but it was close enough...

I grabbed Ron's face in my hands as i forced my lips into his . He then grabbed my waist pulling me on top of him. Hot tears flowed from my bloodshot eyes as Ron started to remove my top leaving me in my black lace bra. I tore myself away from him as I started to loosen his belt. He looked at me with a blank stare as he allowed for his bottoms the slide off his legs. I sighed deeply before lowering my body back on top of his now bare chest as I continued to kiss him. I knew even in my drunk state that what Ron and I did was wrong but in the end we were just kids...kids forced to grow up at seventeen and go through more Trauma in seven years than any adult goes through in their lifetime. We were alone in this world.. with nothing as it used to be.