Still with you

Chapter 36 : Not today.

Chapter 36 : Not today.

Two more memorable concerts in Paris. I give all my best, because last time I was injured and I couldn't dance. On the first show, there is too much wind for me to fly during my solo Euphoria. But on Saturday, the weather is better and I am able to fly. Fans screams, it makes me so happy. I wave my hand to Army. I love this moment so much. How can I experience something more exhilarating ? Jimin doesn't like to see me up there. I know he doesn't look at me backstage where he changes because he's afraid for me. It bothers me to cause him extra stress but I can't help, I could not say no to this proposal of the technical staff. We only live once.

He enchants the stadium, locked in its transparent bubble. This setting is so beautiful and poetic. It moves me a lot, as well as his choreography. I could watch Jimin dance for hours without ever getting tired. It gives me the idea of asking him to dance for me, so I can film him.

On Friday, Halsey joins us on stage for Boys with Love, I hear the clamor of surprise and joy of fans, it's so nice to share all these moments. She speaks in French to say that we are like her family. She's lovely.

But I prepared a surprise too. I'm very proud of it. I asked Lila, Tae's French girlfriend, to teach me a popular French song. She kindly sent me a recording and lyrics. I've been rehearsing every morning for a few days, Jimin has been helping me. I'm glad I had this idea to please our fans. So I sing : Aux Champs Elysees. Smiles are everywhere and French Armys sing with me. I can't stop smiling too. Hoseok dances with Tae, it's hilarious !

Aux Champs-Elysées, aux Champs-Elysées
Au soleil, sous la pluie, à midi ou à minuit
Il y a tout ce que vous voulez aux Champs-Elysées

My brothers congratulate me. We have a lot of fun with French Armys. We promise to come back next year. I really want to come back to Europe.

After Paris, we go back to Korea, with a new staff member. A young French make-up artist replaces one of our own, who had to return to Korea earlier for some reasons. This young woman's name is Mary. She has to take care of Tae and Hoseok. Tae tries a few words in French with her and promises to introduce her to his Lila. Marie will stay with us apparently for the next public outings. She seems nice and even congratulates me for singing « Aux Champs Elysées ».

We go home exhausted, like each time. All our shows were sold out. I sleep the whole trip home. We can't wait to get back to our habits, our bed, good home food, to speak our language, maybe we will be able to see our families... Yoongi wants to end his second mixtape up in order for it to be out in August or, at least, before the end of the year. Nam Joon says we need to start writing again to go further in the Map of the soul concept : Shadows and Ego, as Armys guessed. It seems that we are not going to be able to rest much. However, I also want to go and see my parents. And I really want to spend more time with Jimin. The two of us, alone.

Of course I thought about his proposal. But I'm loath to do that. I can't. It's even not that I'm not ready, I never would be. There's no need to talk about it. Jimin doesn't annoy me with it, and for two weeks I think he forgot. Fine. We continue to have sex as before. I'm the one who penetrates him. Jimin is always so passionate, I do everything I can to please him. He seems fulfilled, I'm a little reassured.

We take part in various events of Festa, for our sixth anniversary : we shoot family portraits, Jin reveals a new song, entitled Tonight. A poignant ballad in which he tells about the death of his pets. We publish souvenir photos from 2019, short interviews and dance pratice videos, especially Mic Drop and Spring Day, which are very successful among our fans. I sing Euphoria, in acoustic version, in a short video too.