Still with you

Chapter 31 : Euphoria.

Chapter 31 : Euphoria.

Jin's come back brings the whole group joy, even if we still miss Jimin. I miss him, it is sometimes unbearable. Sometimes I get mad at him. Sometimes I mourn his absence. Even far from me, Jimin drives me crazy. My brothers tell me to leave him alone, that I did everything I could do. Now he is the one who knows what to do. I know he loves me, but he has doubts about his future with the band; and now I know there's nothing I can do about it. We don't text. I hope he enjoys his vacation with his buddies. Obviously I'm jealous too. It drives me crazy to know that he is with them. But I have to be an adult, I don't want him to run away. I wonder if that's what he felt when I was with Bo Bae. A true torture.

On March 1, Hoseok's mixtape is finally out : Hope World. We're so happy and proud of him. He finally let us listen to it and we all remained stunned by his talent. He was very nervous but we really loved it. For me, he managed to show who he is, sensitive, sweet, mostly joyful. So we are confident for the official release and it starts very strong. Our dear Hobi will quickly be ranked in the Billboard 100. Time magazine chose its mixtape that week as one people must listen to.

It's party time at the dorm, especially since Jimin comes back home. Without warning anyone, he arrives the same night as the release of Hobi's album. We gather in the living room to toast with Hoseok. He invited his older sister Dawon for the occasion. We get to know each other better because so far we have simply see her a little. Brother and sister seem to get along so well.

All of a sudden, Jimin frames himself into the living room door. He smiles and I want to cry. Tae and Hobi are the first to greet him. I can hear him laughing out loud. Jin, Nam Joon and Yoongi get up, to hug him. I can't move. Tears are overflowing from my eyes, my heart is banging in my chest. I try to breathe calmly but I'm so moved to see him again. I realize that I actually thought that, maybe, he wouldn't come back.

When our brothers step back, Jimin looks for my gaze. His pierces me. I try to smile but I can feel my lips shaking. Jimin reaches out to me and I manage to get up. I join him and he drags me to his room. He closes the door. Then he takes me in his arms and hugs me. I cry with warm tears, leaning over his shoulder. He strokes my hair and says softly :

-Oooooh, Jungkook, I'm here now. I'm sorry I cause you some pain...

I breath hard to clear my mind. I don't dare look at him. I'm so afraid he's going to leave.

-Are you back to stay ? I ask in a pitiful voice.

-Yes, I'm staying.

-For the band ?

-And for you too.

I squeeze him so hard he says he can't breathe anymore, so I free him a little.

-Kiss me Jungkook.

I'm so ready. Finally, I am able to kiss Jimin again. What an incredibable feeling ! I love him ! I got him under my skin !

-Did you spent a good holiday ?

-Yes, thank you Jungkook. How are you doing ?

-Okay, now. But... but I missed you so much...

I try to open my heart because Jimin has often told me that I don't speak enough about my feelings. I stick my forehead to his.

-I don't want us to be separated anymore, Jimin. I love you, I love you, I love you madly.

He still strokes my hair, and smiles :

-I love you so much too, Jungkook. I don't want us to be separated any more.

I kiss him again, moaning. I'm so moved. We kiss passionately for an eternity.